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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2017-05-14 03:29 pm

[ SECRET POST #3784 ]


⌈ Secret Post #3784 ⌋

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Transcript by OP

[personal profile] fscom 2017-05-14 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Cut for length.

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[personal profile] fscom 2017-05-14 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I haven’t made a secret in years, but I have nowhere to talk about this, so here I am. *deep breath*

I have grown up admiring a certain voice actor, having a crush on him ever since I was a kid. As I got older, I’ve realized he’s also a brilliant stage actor and have seen him in numerous plays since. He’s become my main inspiration and one of the major reasons I’ve decided to apply for the academy of dramatic arts. It took quite a bit of time and lots of hard work, but three years ago I’ve made it and now I’m close to actually graduating.

My dream was to some day share the stage with him, my favorite actor, and last week I’ve found out I’ve got a small part in a new play he’s going to be in as well. Yesterday, I’ve met him and I feel like I’m actually dreaming. My peers have no idea just how much this means to me, for them he’s just another actor, we’ve met and worked with a lot much more famous actors, but he is just so, so special to me. I am lost and mesmerized, he’s as lovely as I always thought he’d be, and I feel like running away because I’m not sure I can take it. I’ve been a fan for half of my life and now I have the privilege to do the job I love more than anything while sharing the stage with someone who got me into it in the first place.

Not gonna lie, I don’t think I’ve ever really stopped being a little bit in love with him, but now? Ugh. I’m so scared being near him because I don’t want him to notice my lingering looks, I’d die if he did. I try not to, but I still stutter when I talk to him and I feel my face burning when he smiles at me, it’s like I’m twelve all over again. If I want to be able to do my job well, I have to get rid of these feelings, I know. How do I do this? How do I go from being a love struck fan to a proper colleague? I never thought this would happen, I always thought my crush would disappear once I meet him, but it’s only gotten worse.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps it would help if you tried to look at your interaction with him as playing a part? Private you is a fan, but you are going to play the proper colleague?

And see it all as a trat for you, It makes me happy to hear he is this nice person for real, even though I don't know you or him. I just like it when people are as nice as they seem.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
You haven't made a secret in years, and you still haven't.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
OP, What you need to do is mentally build a wall between your fandom crush and this guy you know. The more you work together, the easier it will be. But know this, if you sincerely thank this person for inspiring you it may make life a whole lot easier for everyone. He'll understand why you've been a stammering bundle of nerves and you will relax because your secret will be out.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
I thought this was sweet. Congratulations on achieving your dream OP! And as someone said above, just concentrate on being professional. :)

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
OP I'm sorry I don't have any good advice and I'm sure it's hard for you to work with them, but this secret is honestly super cute.
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2017-05-14 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
First of all - congratulations! Your hard work paid off, that's awesome!
And now, you get to work with your inspiration and, well, crush. YAY.

And i get that that's amazingly awkward. But please - first, try not to put too much emphasis on it. This person doesn't know you have a crush, so unless you do something really silly and obvious, like try to grab them or start leaving them notes or talking about it to everyone, they won't say a word to you.

Even if they *do* suspect, they are not going to get you fired, or ridicule you, and they're also not going to encourage you; i'm sure it's happened to them before, so they just deal with it and move on.

All you need to do? Is be professional. Know your lines, know your blocking, help your fellow cast-members. Be on time, be smart, pay attention. If you sigh and have heart-eyes every now and again, well, it's no big deal. Just be the professional you are (and want to be), and let them be that professional, as well.

And store up all these moments you get to have, of them as human being (remember, that's what they are), them as a person with a private life you might get to see glimpses of, them as a working actor, sharing the craft with you, and treasure them.

If you concentrate on being the best you can, being spot-on, doing the job, and contributing to the day-to-day (rather than mooning over them from the shadows), they'll come away with a good impression of you, a fond memory, and possibly a little hand up to the next level of your career.

Good luck, and *have fun*!

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Thank you so much for your elaborate, reasonable advice, I really appreciate it.

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[personal profile] sadiesockmonkey 2017-05-14 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't have any advice for you, but I would like to congratulate you on the all the hard work you've put in towards achieving your dreams.

I hope things work out and that you stick it out & are able to be a proper colleague.

OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, I really appreciate it <3

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I find this incredibly sweet!

(Would any sort of romance be out of the question? I know, I know, mixing business with pleasure is bad, but...)
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[personal profile] digitalghosts 2017-05-15 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
I also found that sweet xD . Was meant to ask same thing...

However, best to really distance yourself till project is over as if romance goes bad and this person affected you this much - doubt it would be grand to bump into him much.

Also, yeah, am sure plenty actors crushed on each other so no one would be surprised.

Best of luck and reviews OP!

OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 11:24 am (UTC)(link)
Oh dear lord, no, that would be too surreal, I'm barely dealing with having to be near him every day. I can't really change how I feel about him, but I won't act on it. He's almost twice my age and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't stand a chance even if I did make a move, but I won't pretend I haven't daydreamed about it. In a highly unlikely event *he* initiates something...all self-control would probably be out the window in a matter of seconds, there's only so much a girl can take.

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Get some quaaludes, sneak into their dressing room, down the drugs and a few shots of voddie, and wait.

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
This escalated much slower than I anticipated. FS is very mellow tonight. Good for us.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Aw, OP, you're so cute. I don't have any advice for you, but I kinda want to give you a hug, so hugs if you want them.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, nonny, hugs are always appreciated <3
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[personal profile] el_regrs 2017-05-14 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Eh, I'm pretty sure this actor is used to being fangirled (fanboyed?) over, so I wouldn't worry about feeling weird around him. You still have a crush, and there's nothing wrong with that. Obviously, don't get all creepy about it, but if you find yourself staring a bit too long at him, don't beat yourself up over it either.

What you can try to do is remember he's a person first, and an actor second. In reality, he is just another actor you are going to work with. You don't have to "get rid of" any feelings, you just have to put them in a place where they can be controlled. Put them aside and focus on your lines and the story. Remember what's more important at the moment- the success of the play.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 01:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for the advice, much appreciated. I'm not sure he's so used to fans in general, let alone fangirls. He was surprised to learn I was a fan of his (that's as much as I've let on, nothing more), he's just so humble I don't think he expected it.

Anyway, you're right, he really is just another actor, and another lovely person I get to meet along the way. It makes my job more difficult though, constantly worrying about him noticing my feelings for him. I doubt he would acknowledge them, even if he does notice me pining for him, but I don't want to put him in such an awkward position. I do keep my feelings under control and I do my best every day, I hope I can keep it that way.

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
No advice, but speaking as an avid fan of living vicariously through other people: please tell F!S if you end up banging this guy.

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 11:53 am (UTC)(link)
Haha, yeah, I wish! No, but seriously, it's fun to think about the possibilities, but, in reality, I respect and admire him far too much to try and get him into bed. That being said, watching him sing two feet away from me is getting more difficult with each passing moment, one of these days I'll forget to breath.
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[personal profile] alexi_lupin 2017-05-17 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
Gah I'm SO curious as to who this could be

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(Anonymous) 2017-05-17 09:36 am (UTC)(link)
No one famous, really. Although with his talent, he ought to be. If he were conventionally attractive (he is hot as hell if you ask me, but I'm biased, lol) and if he tried getting more media attention (which he doesn't, because he doesn't seem to care), he'd be much more well known instead of being so terribly underrated.