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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2017-05-14 03:29 pm

[ SECRET POST #3784 ]

⌈ Secret Post #3784 ⌋

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Re: Transcript by OP

[personal profile] fscom 2017-05-14 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I haven’t made a secret in years, but I have nowhere to talk about this, so here I am. *deep breath*

I have grown up admiring a certain voice actor, having a crush on him ever since I was a kid. As I got older, I’ve realized he’s also a brilliant stage actor and have seen him in numerous plays since. He’s become my main inspiration and one of the major reasons I’ve decided to apply for the academy of dramatic arts. It took quite a bit of time and lots of hard work, but three years ago I’ve made it and now I’m close to actually graduating.

My dream was to some day share the stage with him, my favorite actor, and last week I’ve found out I’ve got a small part in a new play he’s going to be in as well. Yesterday, I’ve met him and I feel like I’m actually dreaming. My peers have no idea just how much this means to me, for them he’s just another actor, we’ve met and worked with a lot much more famous actors, but he is just so, so special to me. I am lost and mesmerized, he’s as lovely as I always thought he’d be, and I feel like running away because I’m not sure I can take it. I’ve been a fan for half of my life and now I have the privilege to do the job I love more than anything while sharing the stage with someone who got me into it in the first place.

Not gonna lie, I don’t think I’ve ever really stopped being a little bit in love with him, but now? Ugh. I’m so scared being near him because I don’t want him to notice my lingering looks, I’d die if he did. I try not to, but I still stutter when I talk to him and I feel my face burning when he smiles at me, it’s like I’m twelve all over again. If I want to be able to do my job well, I have to get rid of these feelings, I know. How do I do this? How do I go from being a love struck fan to a proper colleague? I never thought this would happen, I always thought my crush would disappear once I meet him, but it’s only gotten worse.

Re: Transcript by OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps it would help if you tried to look at your interaction with him as playing a part? Private you is a fan, but you are going to play the proper colleague?

And see it all as a trat for you, It makes me happy to hear he is this nice person for real, even though I don't know you or him. I just like it when people are as nice as they seem.

Re: Transcript by OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-14 09:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Also: your crush = artificial construct based on guesswork.

Meeting him in reality in some ways should be like an entirely new person.

P.S. If he's been around and is relatively famous, he's dealt with "starstruck" folks before. You'll both be fine.


(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 10:18 am (UTC)(link)
I actually didn't know much about him before we've met, he always seemed like a nice person and an immensely talented artist, but meeting him for the first time actually was like meeting him for the first time. He's been around for about 16 years I think, but he's not exactly, he's pretty well-known in theater circles, but people who don't follow theater most likely have no idea who he is. I doubt he's ever had a lot of fans to deal with, to be honest.

Re: OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"I doubt he's ever had a lot of fans to deal with, to be honest."

Then please tell him he inspired you. Don't gush. BUT IT WILL MAKE HIS DAY.

Re: OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-15 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, as I wrote in another comment, at this point he does know I've been a fan for years, which surprised him (his face lighting up was priceless), but I still haven't told him how much he's affected my career choice, I'm not sure I can say it without sounding like I'm gushing.

Re: OP

(Anonymous) 2017-05-16 05:57 am (UTC)(link)
Good on you.