The mountains are calling and I must go.
24 April 2017 @ 06:48 pm
Fidele Chapter 19  
Fidele (87810 words) by misslucyjane
Chapters: 19/?
Fandom: Original Work
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Original Male Character/Original Male Character
Additional Tags: Romance Novel, Paranormal, PTSD, Hauntings, Kid Fic, Drug Use

A house full of ghosts is no place to fall in love.

Malcolm Carmichael has been coping with his post-war trauma by taking lovers, teaching art to schoolboys, and trying to ignore the ghosts he sees everywhere. At the death of his mother, he realizes he wants more than just to coast on by, and leaves the exclusive school in search of something more.

Caleb Thibodeaux was so traumatized by the death of his parents in a fire that he hasn't spoken a word since. His uncle Noel hires Malcolm to be his tutor, and Malcolm discovers that Caleb is not the only Thibodeaux son with secrets. The plantation house Fidele is beautiful but haunted, and Noel is much the same.

Soon Malcolm is absorbed in protecting Caleb and Noel from threats both living and dead, and in uncovering the story of Fidele.

Read at AO3 or at
24 April 2017 @ 05:28 pm
ER Trip Number "I-Literally-Do-Not-Give-A-Fuck-Anymore"  
* Think to myself "Hmm. We need more cat litter. I'll go pick some up."

* Come home, shut the door behind me, put my back against it, and slide into an inky unconsciousness.

* "That sucked. I'm going to keep an eye on out on this."

* Refill catboxes. Message Blozor that I'm contemplating a 911 call.

* Check blood pressure. It's dropping. It's dropping fast. Like, really fast.

* "Shiiii-". Pass out on couch halfway between through the thought. Come to, grab phone, wander outside and call 911.

* (Yeah yeah, shouldn't have walked anywhere. Should have kept my ass right where I was. I am sick of waking Jesse out of a dead sleep and panicking him. And sick of us desperately trying to round up all 4 cats into the bathroom so the EMT's can work without stepping on them.)

* Blood pressure reads 80/47 when the EMT's arrive.

* Get the ER. I am asleep - or unconscience, it can be hard to tell - for most of it but am able to at least come around when people say my name multiple times. Blood pressure wavers in the ER between the healthy(ish) bare teens when lying prone and then plunging into 60/40 when I try to stand.

* It does take a few hours in the ER, but it all finally stabilizes.

* Final diagnosis? Combo of wrong meds and dehydration. Discard one of the old blood pressure meds, drink more water, and for god's sake, stand up slowly, Teressa.

* Not sure how I feel about all this. Am glad (thank you, Michael, for urging me to call 911) that I caught it early enough to avoid dying this morning. Am annoyed that I have something that REQUIRES catching early enough to avoid dying in the span of an hour, if not minutes.

* Could it have killed me? Could it have killed me inside of an hour? Going by the numbers, yep. Am I counting this as yet another near death experience?

* No. Why? Because I don't care about that word anymore. It's not the "near death" part that counts.

* It's the part where I walk out of that damn hospital and come home to write a Livejournal post about it that counts.
I was promised tea
24 April 2017 @ 02:35 pm
Ahhhhhh! Story brain waves  
I started this dreamwidth several years ago as a dumping ground for a story, then a couple of years later, was hijacked by another, somewhat related. It evolved massively. I wrote a bit of it during NaNo 2013. Finished NaNo, but only made it a quarter of the way through the story. It evolved and altered nearly as much if not more. Then I felt myself being called back to the earlier one, set in the same basic time frame.

I was sifting through images and had a massive brainwave that is serving to solidify the first one. Been getting that lately, but what a flood this afternoon! I've sort of been working on them at the same time.

Please, brain, behave. I need to write like I need air right now.

I don't have outside work today, so I am trying to sort my life. It has been a bit difficult to focus in the recent past, but I think that things are getting better again. Ohhh, how lovely would it be if this Summer was a magical, productive Summer like two years ago. (Without the crazy drama that followed hot on its heels). I intend to take advantage of the momentum to complete original projects and writing, though fic is quite fun. I do write every day, a lot of it nonsense, but it'd be nice to complete something coherent.

Perhaps I should assign myself drabbles, like writing exercises that force me to focus a bit and then adopt and expand on bits that would work in the story(ies). Whatever I write, no matter how random, it tends to remind me of what I have yet to finish and sort of winds up there, in that universe, for lack of a better word. It is not a sci-fi story, sort of fantasy. But I suppose all books are their own universe.
Current Mood: excited
Cassie Morgan
24 April 2017 @ 08:50 pm
New Goals  
I've put 4lb back on in the last two months - side effects of not being able to walk and a combination of medications that makes me want to eat everything in sight.

My knee is doing a lot better than it was, so hopefully I'll be able to get at least 4-5k steps in again a day. I'd got up to 6k but don't want to push my knee.

Tonight I had chicken stir-fry for dinner and I'm now eating apple slices and peanut butter instead of chocolate.

Tomorrow I have porridge for breakfast, yogurt and fruit for morning snack, leftover chicken stir-fry for lunch, a banana for afternoon snack, tuna & rice stir-fry for dinner, an apple & peanut butter for evening snack.

I WILL lose 7lb before Collectormania. That's my goal. 14 stone/196lb for Ben & Michael. I CAN DO THIS
Current Mood: determined
24 April 2017 @ 02:08 pm
"Adrift" Poem Repost for Holocaust Remembrance Day  
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Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Dona Dona
Current Location: Glad that my only Jewish camp experience was the fun summer kind
24 April 2017 @ 11:51 am
Madison is on a cycle where she doesn't want to sleep until ass o'clock but she still wakes up super early and I really hope it ends soon because I can't keep staying up until 2, taking care of "I don't want to nap" baby all day long and then just repeating it.

And when I say ass o'clock, I mean 1 and 2 am.

Her dad barks commands at her like she's a dog and I can't get him to stop. His reply is always "I don't understand why she does (thing)" She's a TODDLER. That's why. That isn't a good enough answer for him and I don't know what else to say or do.
Current Mood: exhausted
24 April 2017 @ 11:19 am
Genprompt Bingo Card  
I did an opt-in card with settings, style (structure), and rituals. I'm pleased with it, especially that bottom line - as anyone who reads my fics knows, that is the perfect line for me. :D There's only a few prompts that I could see myself struggling with (curry night, for example, though I guess I could do a Lavender and Parvati at Hogwarts fic with it), but I am really excited about that last line.

Repeats and Repetitions Antarctica Festivals and Celebrations Sleepovers and Pyjama Parties Bodies of Water: Lakes / Ponds and Seas
Closets, caves and other tight spaces Graduation Poker Night Use of Symbolism Slow Build
Pastoral Idylls Five Things Wild CardSong Inspired The Theatre
Mountains Road trip The Shopping Mall Curry Night Points of Transition: Corridors and Stairways
Outsider POV Unreliable Narrator "It is the way of my people": Traditions Daily Rituals (Morning Routines / Nightly Prayers / Meal Times) Ritual Marks and Body Decorations

24 April 2017 @ 09:53 am
Motivation Monday What is next  
This weekend was a quiet weekend at home with a visit to a local convention. Caroline had an active social life with her friends. Visit to the gym and other weekend activities were achieved.

This week is a little more complicated with Caroline’s 8th grade trip, Peter’s obligations, and various other things that need attention.

We have some conventions coming up that need to be sorted out.

But right now I would say that it is a bit of a pause that gives me some time to write down the order of next then start down the list.

A lot going on in my head but that’s my problem that I have to work through.

Spring has sprung and the trees are at that odd shade of new green.

I am going to walk to the gym today then deal with some stuff around the house.

I am grateful for forward movement in life.
Cassie Morgan
24 April 2017 @ 12:57 pm
Movie meme stolen from [personal profile] debris4spike  
I'm not the biggest movie fan, I'm usually the last to see anything but this looked fun so I thought I'd give it a go!

A Movie I Love: Empire Records
An Action Movie I Love: Deadpool
A Drama I Love: Gladiator
A Western I Love: Not actually a genre I watch. I tried watching Ben Browder's Outlaws & Angels, I tried watching The Magnificent Seven and... nope, just not a genre that works for me to be honest
A Horror Movie I Love: The Haunting. The original 1963 version
A Comedy I Love: A Dog's Breakfast
A Romance Movie I Love: Notting Hill
A Noir I Love: I actually had to google what noir even was. Minority Report, maybe?
A Disney Movie I Love: I'm sorry, you think I can choose? Um... Motocrossed. For reasons of Riley *g*
A Sci Fi Movie I Love: Stargate. Duh.
An Animated Movie I Love: Beauty & The Beast
A Superhero Movie I Love: Captain America: The First Avenger
A War Movie I Love: Again, not really a genre I watch. The Men Who Stare At Goats, if it counts
An Exploitation Movie I Love: Boa Vs Python or Mega Snake. I'm a sucker for the SyFy monster movies
A Musical I Love: Seven Brides For Seven Brothers
An Historical Movie I Love: The King's Speech
A Bad Movie I Love: Have we covered my love for SyFy and Hallmark movies? The Lost Treasures Of The Grand Canyon or Ferocious Planet definitely spring to mind
A Childhood Favorite: Peter Pan
A Shakespeare Movie I Love: Henry V
A Franchise I Love: Marvel
A Trilogy I Love: Star Wars
A Guilty Pleasure I Love: Wedding Bells. Hallmark movies people!
A Movie Recently Seen: Wolves. Mmm Jason Momoa as a werewolf <3
My Favourite of This Year: I don't think I've seen any films released this year, but my favourite movie I've seen so far this year is probably *thinks* The Princess Diaries
A Favorite of All Time: Jurassic Park
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24 April 2017 @ 12:09 pm
Music meme  
Day Two: A Song With a Number in the Title.

Probably not very original here...

Prince ~ "Party Like It's 1999" from Clem Auto Sales on Vimeo.

Cassie Morgan
24 April 2017 @ 09:56 am
Another Monday  
I did manage to successfully wrangle Bob! the muse last night and wrote just over 1100 words on my [community profile] stargate_summerfic. That takes me to 4000 words and I'm about half way through the story I want to tell. Of course, the deadline is in a few days and I have no idea how this thing ends so... ARGGGH

Peculiar dreams were had last night. They involved Team Leverage, an aeroplane, a boxing club and G Callen from NCIS: LA as a mechanic. I have no idea.

I'm not, as you can tell by the time of posting this, at work today. Yay day off. Yay four day week. No particular reason, just taking lots of long weekends because I still have like 25 hours (about 3.5 days) holiday to use by the end of the month, or I lose it. I haven't worked a full week all month!

Plans for today involve exciting adulting type things such as meal planning, grocery shopping, laundry, dishes and taking out the recycling. Wh00t wh00t. But first there is The Morning Wibble ) and Saving Hope!
I was promised tea
24 April 2017 @ 01:28 am
Really need to go to bed now (an oft repeated phrase)  
I was going to post a longer entry as well as review the latest episode of Doctor Who, Smile, but I took out the violin sometime after ten o' clock, looked up a little(?) bit later, and realized that it was already past midnight! I am so knackered now, and yet, still awake.

Definitely tomorrow though. I enjoyed Bill greatly, yet again, as well as her interaction with The Doctor, though there were a couple of things about the episode that I found a tad bizarre (aside from its feeling like a mash up of every dystopian episode in recent years complete with the colony/settlement looking a bit like an abandoned shopping arcade/mall).

I know I am not supposed to be paying too close attention to plots. ;P
Current Mood: exhausted
the Spalding Gray of crap
24 April 2017 @ 12:16 am
i threw my crutches in the river of a shadow of doubt  
22/4/2017 wordcount: 1,438
23/4/2017 wordcount: 700

All of that on my May the 4th fic, which is currently at 5.6k. It should be done a few days before deadline. Yes, it should. IT REALLY REALLY SHOULD. (Trying to convince myself as much as you, here.)

Starting to figure out what to write for MYWYN, since CampNaNo was such a miserable failure this month. The biopunk novel is dead in the water so I better try something (anything) else or it'll just be more of the same.
perpetually late to the party
23 April 2017 @ 10:19 pm
Fanart - Final Fantasy XV - Noctis/Prompto  
It was a rainy, rainy day today so I spent most of it playing video games and painting this. :D

Title: Time and Place
Fandom: Final Fantasy XV
Rating: PG-13 for sexually suggestive situations (they could be cuddling or this could be post-coital...or mid-coitus lmao)
Content notes: None
Artist notes: Drawn for the amnesty challenge over at [community profile] fan_flashworks. The past challenge I picked was photo.
Summary: Noctis doesn't think this is the time or place but Prompto's always up for a selfie.

Time and Place
Sheila the Wonderbink
23 April 2017 @ 09:55 pm
Strange Life . . .  
So I have my shiny new journal set up at Dreamwidth and I started going back through my previous entries.

All of them.

I ended up going all the way back to the very first one.

It was interesting reading when viewed through the lens of my undiagnosed bipolar disorder. I'd been misdiagnosed with unipolar depression and was even taking medication for it. It kinda sorta helped with the depression, but didn't do much with the hypomania, which I'm pretty sure can be blamed for me flying all the way to California to see Duran Duran play and coming all the way back inside of 24 hours.

It also reminded me that I used to post a lot more often. I don't know if the shiny newness of having a Dreamwidth journal will be enough to inspire me to write more often, but it certainly can't hurt.

Today I took pleasure in rereading and tweaking my novella.

Today I learned that my very first LiveJournal entry was on April 11, 2003. (I'm sure I knew this at some point, I just forgot over time.) Fourteen years ago. Yikes.
Current Music: (silence)
Current Mood: artistic
23 April 2017 @ 09:31 pm
Winner winner chicken dinner!  
I did it! I wrote 40k words! The first draft still isn't done, but now I'm in the habit of writing and I plan to keep going until it's done. I only had to push myself to write a couple of times, and each time when I got started I was able to keep going for longer than I thought. Except once, where I ground out ~800 words and called it a night. LOL

Anyway, it feels good to be a

23 April 2017 @ 08:36 pm
AO3 stats meme  
It's time to do the AO3 stats meme again. Last year can be found here. This last year I have managed two things I’ve never done before- written fandoms/pairing which is at least semi-popular. And written love stories which are only slightly twisted and actually ends on a happy note. I must grow soft in my old age.

I currently have 94 fics on AO3 divided between 19 fandoms. I will forever be hopelessly multi-fannish. So I couldn’t resist adding this:

My top five fandoms
1.Doctor Who, 30 fics
2.Peter Pan, 16 fics
3.Harry Potter, 6 fics
4.Penny Dreadful, 5 fics
5.The Historian, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Sleepy Hollow (movie) with 4 fics each.

Read more... )
23 April 2017 @ 02:13 pm
Camp Nano and Mouse  
Mouse in the sun after running himself silly so it's not a wall-o-text post:

I've almost reached my Camp Nano goal! I can't really express how excited I am by this. I have never finished a first draft before. Yes, it's crap rough but I figure I'll give it a week to simmer and then do a first edit. My goal is to do a full edit during July's camp. Then I can work on a sequel in November.

Anyway, my goal was 40k, which I figured would be a good start to the 60 or 70k I want to have eventually. I'm just 3k short, which I hope to finish up today. If I can stay off the internet.

23 April 2017 @ 10:58 am
Quick announcement  
My last review for terror_scifi is—not coincidentally—my first review for [community profile] terror_sffa and is, accordingly, posted in both places. That's right, we now have a community on Dreamwidth! So go over there and join for more reviews, recommendations, discussions, and awesome people.