29 May 2017 @ 09:45 pm
A very groovy pom-pom mutation  
It's so cold I had to make myself a beanie. It's perfectly made to fit my melon-sized head and it has a huge pom-pom. It makes me feel tall. And the yarn is variegated, so the pom-pom has a big splash of red in an otherwise blue-green ball. [personal profile] lilacsigil said it has heterochromia, which, as Charles Xavier has taught us, is a very groovy mutation.

The downside of having a very groovy hat is dodging that never-ending thing when you make stuff, the "You could sell those and make money!" discussion. I could sell them. I'd blow out my thumb tendons trying to make a profit, and I don't want to do that. So it's not going to happen. I make stuff because I love making stuff. If I give you something, it's because I think fondly of you. Argh, why is this so hard to understand?

Also, all the makers on my flist: you are heroes, and I wish that your heroism was recognised, because I'm sure it's not, to the degree that it should be.

I'm having a bad time, mood wise. Thank goodness for fidget cubes, rubber bands and pink wine. Hopefully it's just the leftovers from the family birthday season (last one is today, thank goodness.) In the meantime, I am very tetchy, and only want to wear my beanie and watch Person of Interest. There are worse things to happen on mood swings, I know.

Adult things I have done: been to the dentist for a checkup. Updated my prescriptions at the doctor. Had a haircut. Made plans to go to Melbourne to see [personal profile] lilacsigil's family. Planted more lettuce.

Things I want to talk about but do not have the brain: Riverdale, American Gods (holy shit, Gillian Anderson!), icon making (cos I've been making a few, this post is kind of a GIP), recipes, Agents of Shield, Supergirl, yarn. Sense8. Twin Peaks (omg Twin Peaks!) The Star Trek: Discovery trailer, or as I saw it referred to: Star Trek: Disco Very.

Things I am actually going to talk about instead because it's easier: linkspams.

- via [personal profile] miss_s_b, [syndicated profile] lewis_and_quark_feed is the feed for a science blogger who works with neural networks. (You know those lists? Hobbit names as generated by a neural network, etc? Or, as I recently saw, The neural network writes the episode list for next season’s Dr. Who. The Daleks of the Daleks. Would watch.)

- via [personal profile] chinashop, [community profile] nanodownunder, or, a NaNo-style writing challenge for the southern hemisphere's winter. (Because in traditional NaNo, we're sweltering or on fire.) Not just for the Antipodean writer. For anyone. Kicking off for June - a locked comm for writers wanting to set themselves a deadline.

- Something I came across messing around on Twitter but don't know from where it came: Audio dramas sorted by genre

- something I have open all the time when I'm writing Harold Finch: a massive chart of birds of North America

- via [personal profile] dunmurderin, Bingo card generator.

- via [personal profile] misbegotten, The Definition Of Hell For Each Myers-Briggs Personality Type (because I can never get enough random MBPT stuff.)

- Boing Boing link: Crashed computer at Oslo pizzeria reveals covert facial recognition scheme (From deep within the Person of Interest gravity well where I live right now, I have to say this is some scary Samaritan-level stuff.)

- So you know that we really know how to live it up in the country, there was a local button festival: Button up for a colourful display at Buttonfest. (And the local paper didn't miss a beat when titling that article.) I love buttons. I could so become one of those button collectors. It scares me a little, because I don't have room for a hobby like that.

- Rare Photos of Frida Kahlo as a Young Woman in the 1920s. So amazing!

- Okay, I do have one American Gods link, via [personal profile] forests_of_fire, so you can watch it over and over like I have, American Gods Teaser Shows Gillian Anderson As [deleted for spoilers but go watch, it's amazing] (Spoilers for Episode Five, obviously.)

- last link! Japanese Woman Spotted Wearing Heels That Look Exactly Like Pigeons. Because she was worried about the welfare of the pigeons she was walking past. (Because, apparently, she didn't know that they would tear her to pieces in a minute if their life depended on it. Pigeons are survivors.)

Okay. Prayer circle for my brain weasels. And for my [community profile] wipbigbang, which currently lies disassembled on my screen and I'm not sure how to put it together.
29 May 2017 @ 09:47 am
Post From Tumblr wadewilson-parker: hayley566: wadewilson-parker: wadewilson-parker: robinsheldon: w  






So, Bobby is out of the closet.

Now would be a good time to establish Peter Parker’s bisexuality as canon.

I mean who could think even for one moment that this guy





(if someone could add the panel where he tells Luke Cage he wants Danny fo fist him that would be great)

I didn’t quite find that scan, but I found these two:

thank you Robin! Perfect addition.

I’d love for Peter to come out as bisexual. Just don’t let Bendis or Slott handle the coming out story.

Slott’s my least favorite spider-man writer and We all saw how Bendis handled Iceman’s coming out and the biphobic bullshit that was in that issue.

I second that.

Why not a writer like Matt Fraction or Ryan North (who writes Squirrel Girl a series that I love) or Kelly Sue  DeConnick (who writes Captain Marvel).
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Cassie Morgan
29 May 2017 @ 09:38 am
The Bank Holiday Morning Wibble-A-Thon  
Ahh Bank Holiday Monday. I forgot to turn my workday alarms off - oops - but I was able to hit off when they went off and slept in til like 8 am. It's now gone 10:30 and I'm still in bed. I'm awake and I've had breakfast and all, I'm just sitting here, listening to music and pondering my to-do list for the day.

All the big housework chores are done and my nest is ready for its guests on Friday. I just need to run the vacuum over one last time and take the bags of rubbish down. I'm thinking I might take myself on a little walk down to the Tesco Express and buy myself a nice big bar of chocolate. Course, I won't just walk straight there, I'll try and do a nice little loop around Wellington to get there, walk a mile and a half or so. Yes, just to get some chocolate.

Mostly today, my plan is rest. Keep watching cheesy movies on Netflix, reading Interview With The Vampire and putting the finishing touches to my fic for [community profile] stargate_summer. It really needs a title and a summary but I suck donkeyballs at them.
(note to self - post on comm for an anti-brit-speak beta)

I also seem to have signed up for [community profile] satedan_grabass and am starting to have ideas for that.
(Note to self - message mod and see if recipient is open to a little kink with her smut)

First things first, lets get back into the [personal profile] wibble
29 May 2017 @ 12:00 pm
Nylissa: summer suit  
29 May 2017 @ 08:27 am
Post From Tumblr "There are two types of  
“There are two types of ‘tired’, I suppose. One is a dire need of sleep, the other is the dire need of peace.”
- Anonymous
(via thequotejournals)
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the Spalding Gray of crap
29 May 2017 @ 12:55 am
with Ecstacy and Ivory Wave and a backpack full of Captain Jack to take me to an early grave  
[community profile] raremaleslashex sign-ups are open. I actually nominated some things this time! Have six potentials to request and seven to offer, so gonna try to whittle that down a bit before I submit a sign-up. (If I don't think better of it between now and then, anyway. Pressure? What pressure???)

Three out of the four winning bidders on my offers for STH have responded with affirmatives so far. Guess this is actually happening, time to do the proverbial loin girding and get ready for some deadline shaking... yanno, other than the current deadlines that are already making me shake ahahaha.

Poking at the Twine Story Engine again. Think I might try to make some short-- like, between 2 to 5k words sort of short-- stories with it and use Marmoset Hexels to illustrate at key points. I need to try something to get some visibility to my original books, and idk the game community has treated me okay thus far. If I offer free gamebooks hosted on my server it might turn into sales. Won't know until I try, anyway!

This is all moot until summer is over and my deadlines are met, so whatever. See how it goes.
29 May 2017 @ 05:42 am
Beta Ray Bill Part 1 - Secret Origins  
Posted in full at: on May 28, 2017 at 09:45PM

Tags:IFTTT, Fauxthentic History, DWCrosspost

Tumblr post (this is likely a reblog, and may have more pictures over there)
perpetually late to the party
28 May 2017 @ 11:19 pm
random mishmash  
I joined [community profile] nanodownunder in an attempt to get some writing done in June! I signed up to get blackouts on a few cards which, if I remind myself that not everything needs to have a complete backstory and context, should be doable. But I'm going to start ahead of time in hopes of actually completing something. I'm just feeling so scattered after the creativity bubble popped. WHICH ALWAYS HAPPENS BUT WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO.

Considering the other comments on the sign up post, I'm in good company. :3

If you're into any of the Fire Emblem fandoms, claiming has started over at [community profile] fe_fest! I'm only a million years late noticing, haha, but I'm not really feeling any of the prompts anyway (except maybe the Pegasus Knights: Robot Unicorn Attack one, hahahaha).

There's a vague secret anon over on [community profile] fandomsecrets and I'm unreasonably annoyed by it, haha.

Tonight has been a night of reading Die Hard fanfiction. I just really love John/Matt. ♥

The local art supply store is having a pretty great sale and I'm reminding myself that self you do not need art supplies, don't do it. XD

[personal profile] imperion and I are going for coffee tomorrow! \o/
28 May 2017 @ 08:37 pm
: Music that Inspired the Icons - 1#- Laguna Loire  
So this is something new that I am gonna do-- I'm going to post one of my icons, and then sort of go on why I chose the song to be the basis of my icon; (since music inspires most of what I do in life-- and back when I RPed regularly, oh gods-- the music)

Default icon - - Laguna Loire | Final Fantasy VIII

Secret-- I actually dislike Final Fantasy VIII.

But you know, characters are important to me, and while playing the game I came soon across the saving grace of that game and one character who has remained one of my favorite characters of all time. I was immediately drawn to him because man, he was just unfailingly cheerful and good natured, albeit clumsy and a bit shy, but that was what made me love him, and the moment that Squall went "I dreamt I was an Idiot", well I just fell head over heels in love with him even more. Because of Laguna's integral placement in the game, I found myself playing through it-- I mean the only character in the main party that I really liked was Selphie (and maybe Edea as well-- because misunderstood villians)

When I created this icon, it was right when the Dissidia Duecodiem art came out, and I found out that Laguna was going to be in it. ICON AHOY! And the song came to me because I wanted something to sort of represent him, and this song really hit

"At least we meet on no man's land-- just footprints in the sand
We meet on no man's land, at last"

I mean I know that Squall accused Laguna of not being a great dad, but I believe without a shadow of a doubt that Laguna tried his hardest-- but situations spiralled out of control, and he had so much to do-- and responsibility just got thrust on him (as such is the case with all capricorns, responsibility hunts them down with a giant gun, shooting to kill). But this song, it's about forgiveness-- the eight letters, three words, one meaning stands for "I am sorry", and I truly believe that at the very end they were able to re-conciliate, and that makes me happy.

Perfect song for Laguna.
28 May 2017 @ 05:55 pm
Dept. of Belated Birthdays  
Many Happy Returns of the Day ...

... to 
[personal profile] peoppenheimer , he of extraordinarily rare appearances and extraordinarily rarefied mathematical and philosophical abilities, who celebrated on May 22. May you continue to be all that you are; 

... to 
[personal profile] lydy , who had a birthday on May 24, and who I have not seen for far too long. I hope she's attending Wiscon, which I think would be a great follow up to London. If she's not there, I hope she's enjoying post-Londinium decompression. She's rather brilliant, independent, radical, occasionally mulish, and all of those things are eminently admirable. May the next year be fantastic for you!

... to 
[personal profile] sallymn , music lover, icon maker, fic writer, and genuinely nice person. I have many of your icons, I've enjoyed many of your musical recommendations - in fact, I enjoy interacting with you in many, many ways; I hope your birthday was a great one!
Current Mood: refreshed
Current Location: the livingroom
Current Music: "Shotgun" Junior Walker and the All Stars
29 May 2017 @ 09:06 am
I’m Not Dead. Let’s Have Dinner  
Sherlock emerges to an already live video call to John, suggesting the sheet was... an afterthought. However, they are both whisked away to the Palace where brotherly snark ensues, and then Priest!Lock becomes a thing, and more nudity ensues. Sherlock gets beated, and drugged, but goes on to celebrate the holidays with his friends. Of course Irene decides to cark it on Christmas eve, and then come back on new years', and an American accidentally falls out Sherlock's window. Irene kips over, and Sherlock's ego foils Mycroft's plans, and then Irene's plans, but he saves her anyway, and keeps her phone out of... SENTIMENT! :O







Resource credit to: [ profile] joel_le , [ profile] butterphil , [ profile] lore_85 , [ profile] 78777 , [ profile] ceinwen92 , [ profile] izam0008 , [ profile] dissendiun & [ profile] iconraven 

2x01 A Scandal in Belgravia

28 May 2017 @ 04:39 pm
I don't write love poems  
Never have. But I did write this entry, of which was about who would be the true love of my life.

The one who found this video to beyond beautiful, beyond haunting, and understood it. Poets of the Falls, a Finnish band with a gorgeous talent for twisting the morbid with the pretty.

A few months later, I met Jesse. I showed him this video.

He wept, so moved by it he was. He saw and he understood. The creepy and derelict in his own psyche echoed mine, and I knew it because he found that video to be one of the most bewitching things he had ever seen.

So I've never written a love poem? It turns out that was unnecessary anyways, because we both looked at something and saw the same thing - parts of ourselves in the other.

That's far grander than any love poem I could ever pen.
kay jorin
28 May 2017 @ 09:08 pm

i've always loved these teeny tiny blue flowers. i wish i knew what they're called! they're even smaller than forget-me-nots. or smaller than the variety that people grow in their gardens, anyway. these just grow in the wild, you find them in lawns sometimes. i guess the fact that some have settled on the balcony is a good start, though.

EDIT: they are field forget-me-nots! the ones grown in gardens are woodland forget-me-nots. that explains that. the flowers do have exactly the same colour.
Current Mood: cheerful
Cassie Morgan
28 May 2017 @ 04:55 pm
Flist roll call - anyone else heading to Collectormania in Birmingham next weekend?
[personal profile] charlies_dragon and I are going to be there both days.

Mostly to see Ben Browder and Michael Shanks

I'm also hoping to meet Ming-Na Wen, John Barrowman and Charisma Carpenter. (and Carlos Valdes, Robert Patrick and Dean Cain if pennies stretch that far)

My anxiety is starting to ramp up and I'm starting to get incredibly freaked out by the whole thing, but I'm very very very</> excited! :D
28 May 2017 @ 10:32 am
I am stuck at 17 years old, pausing at the door of the home I ran away from forever. I am trying to consider all of the consequences of going for a walk and never walking back through this door. I'm too addled from abuse and arguments, though, and my feet begin to move before I have time to change my mind.

But I'd spent months trying to consider the consequences, of which there were two: Cassie and my kid brother, aged 15 and 5. The consequences of leaving them behind, alone to be abused, without me there to try and tell them how wrong what was happening was.

By the time I made that final pause, though, there was only one thing I could do. I could save myself and hope that someday, five years from then, ten years, twenty years later, I could save them, too.

Twenty years later, I am still considering the consequences of leaving home. I have not saved anyone, as eventually I realized we can only save ourselves. And leaving them at home did have consequences - with one kid gone, my mother and stepfather could laser focus on abusing the other two children remaining.

And abuse them they did. So much worse than what they did to me.

I know I made the right call for myself. But the survivor's guilt still has the ability to leap up and begin tearing at my throat. It's rare that it crosses my eyes, that I can see it at all anymore. But it still does run through my blood. I suppose on some level, it always will.

I'm still not - and likely never will be - convinced that I made the right move for them.

And what I'm feeling this morning, 35 years old paused in a doorway at 17 years old, is that it was not fair to have to consider those sorts of consequences. To save myself or try and stay and save everyone else...and now being old enough to where my siblings can tell me what happened to them after I left....things that I could have directed at myself instead of being inflicted on my siblings...

Survivor's guilt is an absolutely normal thing to feel in these circumstances. But it was certainly not fair that I had to make that decision.

No one ever should, let alone a 17 year old girl.
28 May 2017 @ 07:26 am
Day 29 - Song meme  
29. A song you like from a musical

Love Changes Everything - from Aspects of Love (sung by Michael Ball). I love musicals. Many, many musicals & many songs from many musicals! But I rarely--well, never!--hear this musical or this song mentioned, so here we go. Playwright & composer Andrew Lloyd Webber. lyricists Don Black & Charles Hart.

And, yes, I do like Michael Ball's singing (& dimples), which I've gathered the vague impression makes me very uncool to admit! I also like other artists who make me uncool, such as, oh, Nickelback & Celine Dion.

All the Prompts )

Current Mood: hot
28 May 2017 @ 07:09 am
Rest In Peace Dalia David  
My mother-in-law, Dalia, passed away yesterday. We knew that this was going to happen but it still hurts. Today Peter is flying back so that he can attend the funeral Monday. It was decided a while ago that if it happened this weekend, Caroline and I would stay to talk to fans and give out cards with his signature to people who wanted them. We fly back tomorrow and then go to join him and the rest of the family.

If you want to know where Peter got his wicked sense of humor, it was from his mother. She had a quick wit and could keep up verbally with the jokes being tossed around. Apparently that made getting through an entire Seder interesting.

She was smart. She had a Masters in Mathematics from Barnard and worked in the 1950s for Crick and Watson who discovered DNA. She had a number of other jobs over the years that she did extremely well while raising three children.

She loved her children with a fiery passion. Cross her kids and you have crossed her and woe betide you if you did that. She loved her grandchildren and her great grandchildren.

She told me that she loved watching Peter and me together. She said it reminded her of Gunter and herself. She loved me because I made her son happy and whole again.

We had a good mother-in-law/daughter-in-law relationship. She was amazed at my life before I met Peter and all that I had done. She gave me recipes for things that she made Peter that he liked.

She is loved and will be missed by us.

I am grateful for having Dalia in my life.
kay jorin
28 May 2017 @ 12:48 pm
so i think i'll write a protocol covering about one month, then we can write a letter to the landlord and state that unless he takes measures to stop the constant disturbances between 10 PM and 6 AM, we will reduce the rent because the flat isn't fully usable. this will probably and hopefully result in a written warning to the neighbours. haha though, the idea that there's people who wouldn't go to this point because they don't want to risk damaging their ~*harmonious relationship*~ with their neighbours! there is already no such thing! there's no relationship at all, we never interact in any way! and i mean, realistically speaking, what's the worst that could happen? they decide that they want revenge and encourage their children to be even louder instead? i keep on writing my protocol and complain again, we eventually reach the point where their contract can be terminated without previous notice (which is kind of a big deal in german law). there's plenty of other people looking to rent a flat like theirs...
Current Mood: contemplative