Yeah, I'm confused as to whether you were:

a) trying to get people to say, "homg, you were raped??? I'm so sorry"
b) trying to sound righteous while covering up your own bitterness and self-loathing, until you got to the end of the secret and it just stopped working
c) trying to make a point and just sounding stupid

Hm, I'll go with... all of the above!