This. Maybe I don't understand the secret or what it's referring to, but it's not uncommon for people who are hyper religious to behave in ways that are completely against the religion they're supposed so devout about. Look at all the "pray away the gay" or "homosexuality is a sin" religious figures who get caught soliciting gay sex in airport bathrooms. Or that one politician who was staunchly pro-life who got caught on tape pressuring his mistress to get an abortion.