I don't think I know you, but you're right. Your situation sounds an awful lot like mine.
The community I was in is a fast paced community too, and I just left without warning (no hiatus post or dropping post). I started out with a legit excuse - I'd missed a few days for RL stuff but then I got nervous about trying to join back in, and the days turned into weeks, the weeks into months and, well, here I am now, I guess.
I feel dumb saying this even though it's anonymous and even though I don't think you know me, because it's just the internet, but it was a combination of the people I was RPing with and my own shortcomings that made me feel really self conscious. I'm easily intimidated in general and a big, fast-paced RP filled with fandom!people I recognized/respected was enough to scare me off, I guess.
I guess my problem now is the same problem that you were having. I don't want people to be annoyed at me, even though they would be completely right to. This isn't the first time I've done this, either, which makes me feel worse. But it is pretty ridiculous of me to keep avoiding RPs and fandom in general especially over something that might not even be a big deal.
Sorry about the tl;dr especially since, uh, I don't think I am who you think I am. Feel free to virtually hit me over the head for being so silly. :|
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The community I was in is a fast paced community too, and I just left without warning (no hiatus post or dropping post). I started out with a legit excuse - I'd missed a few days for RL stuff but then I got nervous about trying to join back in, and the days turned into weeks, the weeks into months and, well, here I am now, I guess.
I feel dumb saying this even though it's anonymous and even though I don't think you know me, because it's just the internet, but it was a combination of the people I was RPing with and my own shortcomings that made me feel really self conscious. I'm easily intimidated in general and a big, fast-paced RP filled with fandom!people I recognized/respected was enough to scare me off, I guess.
I guess my problem now is the same problem that you were having. I don't want people to be annoyed at me, even though they would be completely right to. This isn't the first time I've done this, either, which makes me feel worse. But it is pretty ridiculous of me to keep avoiding RPs and fandom in general especially over something that might not even be a big deal.
Sorry about the tl;dr especially since, uh, I don't think I am who you think I am. Feel free to virtually hit me over the head for being so silly. :|