I am worn down and depressed and a shell of a person. I think me of 20 years ago was a lot more mentally unstable (depression, anxiety, ADHD mix that I hadn't found coping strategies for yet) but I was oddly a lot happier. Oddly because I was pretty suicidal back then.

On the plus, I am way more confident and comfortable with myself these days. I've done some things that would shock younger me (a good imoressed kind of shocked).