Having no empathy for an actual moral conundrum that is almost certainly not the circumstances the OP is in, you mean?
Think about it. The OP confesses that a) they get off hugely to tentacle porn, and b) they are known for "shamelessly" bashing it. You are hypothesizing a factor "c": c) someone close to the OP was raped and it gave them huge moral qualms about the genre. If that was the case why would OP leave that out?? That would be the core of the secret! Any normal person describing the combination of a-b-c would say "Nothing gets me off like tentacle rape; s/b after a friend was raped I got known for bashing all rape-themed stories/art." They might say it in different words but they wouldn't leave out something that significant -- and they certainly wouldn't use the adjective "shameless" to describe it. You describe something as "shameless" when it is something that people might ordinarily conclude you do or should feel shameful about. No one cooks oatmeal "shamelessly." No one ties their sneakers "shamelessly." No one jogs "shamelessly" unless they're, say, jogging in the nude. If OP had developed a moral conviction that all rape-themed material is wrong and should be bashed, they wouldn't describe themselves as bashing it "shamelessly," they'd describe their whacking off to it in private as the shameful/shameless action.
No, OP's actual secret suggests that they are just a common hypocrite, like my ex-girlfriend who used to get off to fetishy stuff in private and then passive-aggressively whine in front of our mutual friends that "I'm so boring because I'm so vanilla." Hypocrites like that are no rarity; if only they were.
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Think about it. The OP confesses that a) they get off hugely to tentacle porn, and b) they are known for "shamelessly" bashing it. You are hypothesizing a factor "c": c) someone close to the OP was raped and it gave them huge moral qualms about the genre. If that was the case why would OP leave that out?? That would be the core of the secret! Any normal person describing the combination of a-b-c would say "Nothing gets me off like tentacle rape; s/b after a friend was raped I got known for bashing all rape-themed stories/art." They might say it in different words but they wouldn't leave out something that significant -- and they certainly wouldn't use the adjective "shameless" to describe it. You describe something as "shameless" when it is something that people might ordinarily conclude you do or should feel shameful about. No one cooks oatmeal "shamelessly." No one ties their sneakers "shamelessly." No one jogs "shamelessly" unless they're, say, jogging in the nude. If OP had developed a moral conviction that all rape-themed material is wrong and should be bashed, they wouldn't describe themselves as bashing it "shamelessly," they'd describe their whacking off to it in private as the shameful/shameless action.
No, OP's actual secret suggests that they are just a common hypocrite, like my ex-girlfriend who used to get off to fetishy stuff in private and then passive-aggressively whine in front of our mutual friends that "I'm so boring because I'm so vanilla." Hypocrites like that are no rarity; if only they were.