I know how difficult a decision this can be, but it also sounds like you know you're making the right decision for you. I had two abortions in my twenties, one a second trimester on medical grounds, the other because I was in a really messed up situation life wise & there was no way I wanted to bring a child into the world under those circumstances. Fast forward to me at age 39, and seven years ago my husband and I found out we couldn't have children (fertility issues on both sides, none of which had anything to do with my previous abortions). Even knowing what I know now, if I had a chance to do things over again I still wouldn't change the decisions I made. As difficult as it was I have always felt they were the right decisions, for me, and for my unborn children at the time, and I have never regretted making them. All the best OP, echoing what others have said, you'll be fine. <3