You only tasted the koolaid! Just a sip, to try it out. See how it tasted. No shame in that! Now you can slowly back away and roll around in the land of canon characterization.

I've been devouring the fic and lately all I've been searching for is actual in character fic, and not fanon in-character, but I dont' know how to ask for it because it seems kind of insulting to be all "no, while these are awesome fics they are in no way in character to the show I just watched." So yeah I feel you, I love the fandom and their blatant love of kinks and tropes but sometimes I just can't take it.