I’m having the shittiest day. I managed to genuinely hurt someone I really care about, simply because I’m a fucking asshole and took my anger out on them. It isn't the first time either. I’m stressed as hell and have way too much stuff to do, and every time I think of it all I get shaky and my heartbeat goes crazy. Everything has gone wrong all day (I even managed to get glue all over my hair, ffs). I'm pretty sure half my family would be better off without each other in their lives. All I want to do is sit down and cry tbh, but I can’t, because I’m stuck in a situation where I have to be sociable and I barely have a moment to myself. I needed a place to vent because it’s in the middle of the night and every friend I could call is in bed and I don't want to disturb them, and it’s either this or doing something stupid (go throw a plate against the wall trying to find an outlet stupid, not more seriously stupid), so yeah. Back to telling myself it’ll get better soon.