I can cut ties with people too easily, especially romantic ties. People always talk about how they wish they could get over their hurt feelings after a break up with a romantic partner or a close friend. I've never really had that problem. I guess it's because I always expect things to turn out bad eventually, so when they do I leave before I can get really hurt by it. I have a few friends that I'm close to and who I have began to trust and feel for over the years, but I've never been trusting of romantic partners. I'm too quick to think to myself that I need to leave romantic partners and I'm always the one to break up with them.

I think it stems from my childhood and how my mother always picked really abusive partners. While she always clung onto these people, I think I turned out the opposite. Where I run away as fast as I can from anyone who shows a sign that they might be like my mother's previous boyfriends. So yeah, I know it's messed up and I wish I had the capacity to trust people I date more often or have the feeling of giving them the benefit of the doubt.