No freaking clue about the DN RP wankage, but what stirred my interest in this secret was the friending/de-friending issue. I had a good friend once who was a tough person to be with. She never really listened to me or gave stuff I liked a chance. I de-friended her because I didn't feel comfortable having her read the stuff on my LJ and that's when I realized that even though I liked her and she was a nice person, I didn't totally trust her and being with her was hurting me in the end.

I don't know if this relates to you at all OP, but there's someone out here who understands (even a little) what you're going through.