[ SECRET POST #2684 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2684 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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07. [WARNING for abuse/child abuse]



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Comments

[fscom]

13. [WARNING for suicide]
http://i.imgur.com/HVlaE3N.jpg

[(Anonymous)]

Anything that works. If My Little Pony convinces you not to kill yourself, then I hope with all my heart the show keeps airing until you find help.

Yup

[(Anonymous)]

Only I don't have a show. It is 100% the guilt of my cosigners having to foot my bills if I die, and knowing that they can't afford that. Sometimes I worry about what will happen if I ever pay off my bills and there is nothing keeping me here anymore. Worry, look forward to, it all depends on my mood at the time.

Re: Yup

[insanenoodlyguy]

Get a house. Or a car. Or something else afforable but keeping you with bills. Preferably something that you will actually take enjoyment from.

Re: Yup

[chardmonster]

Good luck doing that while you're dealing with the average amount of loans.

Re: Yup

[insanenoodlyguy]

That would keep them alive itself then.

[souljelly]

*hugs you, OP*

[(Anonymous)]

OP, I enjoy watching the show too, since it's such a happy and fun show most of the time, but please try finding something else to be a part of as well. Maybe another cute cartoon or a nice anime series that's equally endearing. I don't want you to get disappointed with it down the road when it starts going downhill. I have multiple ongoing fandoms that help me get past my anxiety, so if I grow tired of one of them, I have others that I'm still excited for.

[(Anonymous)]

This show helped me too. I no longer need it in the way I used to, but I'm glad it was around for me when I did.

[(Anonymous)]

that show is so repulsive

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you for the opinion. I'm sure it's very helpful to the unfortunate individual for whom that show is providing a large portion of their reason not to kill themselves.

Do you just not get appropriate context, or are you that much of a jackass?

[lyndis]

It's a really great show. I avoid the fandom, but the show is worth sticking around for in my opinion. As an old MLP fan/collector I thought I would hate it, but I didn't; I'm glad I gave it a chance!

/hugs OP

[(Anonymous)]

The season finale today has lots of G1 stuff in it, so there's something to look forward to!

[toshi_hakari]

Anon, I sincerely hope you will find help and get through the terrible ordeal that is depression. I've been there before and I know how you feel. But I want you to know that you are important and even if you might not think so right now: There is a lot worth living for <3 *hugs*

[(Anonymous)]

I'm glad you found something that keeps you going. I hope you manage to get help through a therapist or psychiatrist.

[(Anonymous)]

I know exactly how you feel but for different reasons. I've made two very secretive attempts on my life. The first time I was found in time and incredibly angry that my attempt failed. The second time I was much smarter about it. I took enough pills with the ability to stop my heart in high enough doses. I had a brand new refill and I paced my intake to avoid vomiting. I didn't come back to conscious until 3 days later, still alive bit very out of sorts. I carried the anger of having failed again here for months. It should have worked. I don't know how or why I'm still around.

The mix that pushed me to take the action was the severe depression I'm still coping with and a trigger event. Even though I had active suicidal ideation, always plotting, always planning. The only reason I didn't make more frequent attempts is because my Boxer whom I treasure kept me tethered to life.

When I finally went to a psychiatrist I began to think about suicide less and less as we slowly ramped up to therapeutic doses. I still see her every week for an hour and we discuss how the week has been and talk about medications that are serving me well and those that need to be adjusted or changed out for something else. It's not an easy road but it can get better.

It took me losing my job over it and having to go on disability to finally push me to seek help.

I'm genuinely sorry you're dealing with this. What worked for me was seeking help and having a dog that is convinced the sun rises and sets because I exist. I hope you can find your way our of your depression. It's just no way to live.