Well recently I kind of had a bit of a midlife crisis or something. I got married in July and from January through July it like a blur of procrastination and playing on the internet all the time. I don't know if I was actually depressed or just incredibly stressed out.
I used to enjoy school, but I couldn't bring myself to do any of it. So I kind of just quit. It wasn't what I really wanted to do and I was doing it because people told me that's what I would be good at. I have a BA so I'm looking for a job right now that will help me be able to afford going back to school once I decide 100% what I want to do. I guess I found my breaking point because I suddenly don't care what my family/friends think of me dropping school. My aunt was paying for my college but she won't now because I changed my mind which I understand and am totally okay with. It was one of the reasons I felt I had to finish my degree even though I didn't want it. She was very vocal about what she thought about any of my cousins who changed career paths.
I also haven't enjoyed horse back riding like I used to. One of my ex-friends keeps her horse there and I hate being there when she's around. She'll stand either outside or inside the arena while I work with my horse and just stare. She won't talk to me which is fine I guess but it makes me dread going out there lately. I've attempted to talk to her but am usually met with silence or one word answers. I'm thinking of moving my horse before it gets to the point where I won't go out there anymore. I'm already going less because of it.
Re: What is something you enjoyed doing,but no longer do?
I used to enjoy school, but I couldn't bring myself to do any of it. So I kind of just quit. It wasn't what I really wanted to do and I was doing it because people told me that's what I would be good at. I have a BA so I'm looking for a job right now that will help me be able to afford going back to school once I decide 100% what I want to do. I guess I found my breaking point because I suddenly don't care what my family/friends think of me dropping school. My aunt was paying for my college but she won't now because I changed my mind which I understand and am totally okay with. It was one of the reasons I felt I had to finish my degree even though I didn't want it. She was very vocal about what she thought about any of my cousins who changed career paths.
I also haven't enjoyed horse back riding like I used to. One of my ex-friends keeps her horse there and I hate being there when she's around. She'll stand either outside or inside the arena while I work with my horse and just stare. She won't talk to me which is fine I guess but it makes me dread going out there lately. I've attempted to talk to her but am usually met with silence or one word answers. I'm thinking of moving my horse before it gets to the point where I won't go out there anymore. I'm already going less because of it.