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And I don't mean in the sense that someone tricked you into clicking Celebrian and you read it all out of bile fascination and now you have a scar on your soul. I mean, a fic you found legitimately good but it messed with your head so much you kind of regret reading it.

Right now I'm feeling so desperately sad after reading this cancer fic about a pairing that I don't even ship. I should have heeded all the warnings about illness and death, the fact that the story began with the frickin' death of the protagonist's beloved dog, but since I don't care that much about the pairing I figured I'd be okay. I was wrong.

I've felt this way before, but that was an OTP and I was actually angrier than sad, feeling like my emotions had been manipulated.

Yes. It was a Jensen/Jared fic that I read (one of like...3). And it was AMAZING! It incorporated music into the fic (one of the characters played the piano). But, it was incredibly depressing (even though it had a happy ending). Even now, when I hear some of the songs from it, it makes me sad. I'll try and find it.

Also a Clark Kent/Bruce Wayne fic because it showed me a kink I did not know I had (and that it is not that popular, I think).

...I'll probably read it if you find it. (I don't ship J2, I think I just have a problem.)

It probably isn't amazing by today's standards, but it was back when I read it. http://felisblanco.livejournal.com/856417.html

It's hard to say. "Regret" is such a strong word, but I basically love Steve/Bucky as a pairing, and even like the darker fics. Hell I even dive into the dumpster of the Hydra Trash Party sometimes.

The problem is some fics of hat pairing, and just generally Bucky Barnes in general, are an absolute minetrap of well...I'm not going to call them triggers, because that word s badly used in fandom...but let's say "shit that upsets me on a deep level and can link to own experiences".

I remember this one fic where a panic attack was described - and I'm not sure they called it that way - but it very clearly was and I was basically "well, that's enough internet for today".

There also was one that had a suicide attempt that just felt very...real (possibly same fic even). It really depends on how it's written, I can't really predict which one will upset me and which one won't, so it's hit or miss.

But yet on some level I might love those fics the most...my brain in weird.

I just stay away from cancer fics, though - especially with my dad, can't really handle that right now.

Umm…if it's not too much trouble…would you mind posting recs (as long as it doesn't make you uncomfortable)?

Some of this sounds right up my alley…

Sorry…I know that's kind of rude given the topic heading, but if you don't mind, I'd really appreciate it.

If it's a problem though, no biggie.

It's not a problem at all, I do it to myself after all.

I just don't think I bookmarked them all.

Mind you, these are my personal issues, so it might not be the same for you.

I love this one, and it has some of the issues mentioned: http://archiveofourown.org/works/1536380/chapters/3415910
Do heed the dubcon/noncon warning there, though, it's there for a reason .

Can't really find the other ones ATM. I'll look for you if you want - pm me to remind me if that interests you.

There was a very old Glee fic, written I think during the back nine of the first season. It involved a very strange "apocalypse" where people just started...disappearing, like one day they'd be there and then the next they wouldn't. Some disappeared right in front of others. And it was a worldwide "plague".

It also revolved around Kurt's feelings for Finn, and Finn sort of returning them but being unable to accept that he returns them all the same, and it was wrenching. It came down to the two of them (the rest of the city, and, implied, the rest of the world) was empty, and I'm really not sure I'll ever shake the feeling of absolute desolation the author wrote into it. It was beautiful, but gutting.

It didn't help that it ended badly. Kurt disappeared before anything could get sorted out between them, and the very last part was Finn rolling over and going to sleep.

I really don't cry at fic (only one other has managed it in my long fic-reading career), but oh god, I was a mess. I still get upset when I think about it. But god, was it beautifully written.

Slightly off-topic, but I wonder if "people disappear apocalypse" is a trend that started from some original thing. I read at least two Harry Potter fics with that plot years and years ago.

IDK but I read an SPN one years and years ago that still haunts me.

Everybody disappears but Sam and Dean and they don't know why, and it's just so horrible to contemplate living in an entirely barren world (to me). And unless they both die at the same time, one of them will be the last person on earth. It was so well written but so unsettling.

I think it must have been a trend some time ago.

I read that one too! I remember thinking the premise was fascinating but completely terrifying.

*nods nods*

And it was an early fic too so it was before all the heaven and hell mytharc stuff.

It's this one: http://gekizetsu.net/sn/lastoutpost.htm

Which tbh was part of what I liked about it. SPN was never as interesting to me after heaven and hell got involved.

But anyway, thanks for linking it! Def going to read it again! (And probably cry, and have lots of conflicting emotions.)

I agree with you except for season five. I adored season five and Cas's appearance and all that jazz; it went downhill from there for me. But yes, I love that the apocalypse isn't tied to anything. They just wake up, if I remember right, and everybody's gone. I'm going to re-read too.

I would not react as well as they did in that situation. Guess that's what fiction is for, though!

God that sounds depressing.

I once read a reasonably well researched pregnancy fic. The author did her homework (as far as I can tell never having been pregnant myself) and included little tidbits her friends had told her about their pregnancies. And then I read the chapter detailing the actual birth of the baby, in which the author had included every single horror story about giving birth her friends had told her. I did enjoy the fic quite a bit but I really wish I would have stayed ignorant about these horrible things that can happen to you when you give birth.

Was there poop?

That's the measure of a well-written pregnancy fic, in my estimation -- they include the fact that, if you're delivering vaginally instead of a C-section, you're gonna poop.

And the month of bleeding after that.

And the hemorrhoids, occasionally.

I remember there was a scene in Scrubs that was all "You WILL poop on the table and there's a 75% chance your vagina will tear!"

Yes.

And while I do value a well-researched fic and am aware of the fact that everyone poops, I could live without having this image of my favorite character burned into my head. It's been creeping up on me while reading smutty fanfic and I'm not into that stuff.

I once read a very well-written Sherlock Holmes fic that involved Holmes getting off of morphine post-Sign of Four. Morphine withdrawal involves diarrhea and incontinence, as the fic was only too happy to go into detail about. I did not need that image.

There was a fic with a lot of gratuitous torture, which is admittedly the reason I was reading it. This had some graphic description of the victim's shins getting broken with a metal pipe, and for some reason shin injuries always get me, right up there with knee injuries. No fucking thank you. Damn image still haunts me, nearly five years later.

Just a few days ago, in fact. It was an AU where the Doctor destroyed the TARDIS before going off to die (for real) at Lake Silencio. Very very haunting.

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