I have really low self-esteem. So it's tough for me to picture myself in a relationship or as being loved because I can't imagine anyone loving me back. I want those things -- to have a significant other, to have sex. But I just feel like they're never gonna happen. I might see a guy that I like that I think is nice-looking, but my brain generally shuts down that train of thought because I know, deep down, that it's not gonna go anywhere.