[ SECRET POST #2897 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2897 ⌋

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Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I have to present my grant tomorrow (presentation + getting grilled for an hour) and I don't know shit about it. I've written it really half-assed and I feel like it's too late to really fix (we've had over three weeks but I was a lazy-ass and didn't do it until the last minute).

This whole semester's been so stressful for me and I'm just so angry and disappointed in myself. I know I should work harder, but I get so anxious and just end up going on the internet to put it out of mind.

Tonight I should be working on it. Instead, I've spent the last three hours alternatively eating and throwing up ice cream while my brain screams at me to stop and just do my work.

I just can't seem to stop self-pitying and FOCUS. I used to be so good at it to. I could sit in the library for nine hours straight and study. But I haven't cracked open a book in months.

Re: Confessions

[izzywhizzy]

Your problems sound just like mine, anon. I don't know what's wrong with me either. I can't find my way back to being able to get stuff done, it's like I'm just broken.

Good luck tomorrow, even if you end up winging it. I hope you figure out a solution for your problem soon.

Re: Confessions

[grausam]

sorry anon. I know the shame of it. half-assing it to get through, probably hoping to get caught, but being too proud or depressed to get help

it's not needless self-pity, I think you're clearly suffering and punishing yourself.
the only thing that helped me a bit was some time off. I'm still struggling with the shit I got myself into through procrastination, but I can slowly work it off now.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Sorry to hijack your reply. Just wanted to clarify, you found that time off helped you get your game back?

Re: Confessions

[grausam]

yes, although I didn't take an official leave, I just skipped uni. so it was still pretty destructive, but people in my work group noticed and were kind enough to give me time. getting help/getting my problems acknowledged was part of it as well I guess.

after a while I actually felt like I wanted to work again, which is way different from feeling forced to, or wanting to be a working person.

haven't fully recovered, but it's much better than a year ago.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

That's good to hear, I hope you continue to recover well, dude. Thanks for replying.