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⌈ Secret Post #2946 ⌋

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Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

TW: Suicide/Depression

I've completely lost hope. I've always had depression and I've on occasion been suicidal, but I usually need some sense of hope to get out of it. My life is never going to be what I want it to be, at best I'll just go through the motions and struggle until the end.

I just got tired of the struggle to the point that I can't even care about anything anymore. I'm numb. I really just have no desire to do anything or speak to anyone. I think I'm nearing the end.

Re: Confessions

[herpymcderp]

That's ...well, it's more common than you think, anon.

It might not be helpful to hear this, but your emotional state right now is probably transitory. It might be something that can be helped with medication or counselling.

There is help out there. If you want to mention where you live in a comment I might be able to point you in the right direction if you want.

I mean, ultimately it's your choice and your life, but you still have options.

Re: Confessions

[kallanda_lee]

Please talk to someone :(

You can private message me if you like, and there's other people who probably have more experience, I recall people posting lines you can call a few months back for someone else.

The thing is that sometimes depression can make you feel like it's the end when it really doesn't have to be. That numbness and disinterest in things is so typical, but OP, please know that this IS a place you can come back from. You can feel again, you can feel GOOD things again.

Please don't give up.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

As the others have said, please get some help.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I've been there. I was living because I didn't want to abandon my cat. That was it. My sole reason for not taking a header off the overpass.

But obviously I didn't. I talked to a therapist, I ended up spending a night in an inpatient facility. My meds got adjusted, I talked about what was going on and eventually I got through it.

I am REALLY REALLY glad I didn't kill myself. Life's not perfect, but it's getting better.

Talk to someone. If you're in the U.S. there's the national suicide prevention hotline: 1 (800) 273-8255.

I know it's hard, but hang in there.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

At least for me, once thing I've found is that depression tends to cycle. Sometimes it's easier to manage. Other times, you've just had it. You're done.

If you aren't seeing a therapist, I'd really recommend finding one if you can. And if the first one doesn't work out, keep looking. Contrary to what many people may say, depression isn't something to be ashamed of. It's something in your brain not working right. You wouldn't NOT treat a broken limb.

I'm struggling myself right now, but I have a therapist and meds. Though it somehow always shocks people when they KNOW what's going on with me, that I'm having a rougher time due to circumstances beyond my control, and they ask how I'm doing, and my response is, "Haven't stepped in front of an 18-wheeler yet! :D "

Ahem. I've hit bottom before, but I've ended up coming back up. Yes, giving in to that despair is incredibly tempting. It's something I deal with every day. But every day I'm still here is another battle one. And sometimes I get battle fatigue. That's when I use my meds and schedule an extra session with my therapist.

I'm not saying that what works for me would work for you. All I'm saying is, even when there isn't hope, you never know when a new ray of it will start to shine.