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[ SECRET POST #2992 ]

⌈ Secret Post #2992 ⌋

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[Grand Theft Auto 5]

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[Zipang]

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[Ricky Gervais]

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[Dexter]

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[The Mentalist]

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[The Truth - Terry Pratchett]

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[Black Books]

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[Edward Petherbridge as Lord Peter Wimsey]

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[Ga-In, Brown Eyed Girls]

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[Oz the Great and Powerful]

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[Colin Baker]

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[9 Hours, 9 Persons, 9 Doors]

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[Johnny the Homicidal Maniac]

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[Blake's 7]

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[Game Grumps]

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[Alexis Denisof]

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Am I alone in feeling particularly unenthusiastic about pretty much everything right now? Honestly I just cannot get excited about a single damn thing. I can't even manage to do simple internet browsing without becoming bored and disinterested (first time in decades I've gone to the internet and found nothing to distract me). I ran out of things to be invested in, and there seems to be nothing coming down the pike that just grabs me. Am alone in this sudden fit existential ennui?

Welcome to my life.

This is your life? Oh thank goodness, here have it back, it really sucks. I wonder who has mine then?

7 billion people on the planet. I doubt you are alone.

However, if you are looking for something interesting to do, give your friends and family members a slip of paper and tell them to write something for you to do. Something interesting. The only restrictions are 1) it can't be illegal 2) it can't be life threatening 3) it can't be permanent

So, no smuggling drugs. No playing Russian roulette. No getting married in Vegas.

Gather the slips, put them in a bag and whenever you are bored, take one out and do it.

You won't be bored then.

I tend to have times like that, particularly when I'm really depressed or angry.

I feel like this often but I'm also massively depressed.

I get this a lot, but it's particularly bad in the last dregs of winter for me. Depending on your location and weather, that might be a contributing factor.

No, same. And I really hate it because I'm usually a very passionate person.

I recently found out that I have an iron and Vitamin 3 deficiency, so that partly explains my lethargy. That and plain old feeling down because my life sucks right now.

But maybe worth the blood test?

Could it be depression? :(

Rarely can I go without getting excited about something, but I've had periods where it was more...muffled, if that makes sense. Or where I had to work up to doing things that I genuinely enjoy, because I just wasn't in the mood.

I feel the same way.

Actually, I often feel this way, but I do wonder if it's because I don't believe in anything. No religion, horoscopes, none of that. Life feels so empty sometimes. It makes no sense to me.

Not OP, but that's exactly how I feel too. I get strangely envious of people who have something they believe in passionately. I think that framework definitely helps define meaning in life, whereas those like us are stumbling around trying to make something to believe in, and it often feels inorganic and unsatisfying as a result.

So make your own belief! Believe in yourself, believe in trying to make the world a better place one smile at a time, idk.

Life is what you make of it, and the meaning of life is whatever you choose it to be. A wonderful sequence of experiences, where you can meet all sorts of cool people and do all sorts of exciting stuff? Why not?

NAYRT

I'm sure you didn't mean this in a patronizing way, but as someone with depressive and anxiety disorders who'd LOVE to do those things if my illness didn't sabotage my every attempt, that's how you come across tbh.

It's really not that simple for a lot of people, for a lot of reasons.

"Make your own belief!" and "Life is what you make it!" are the same sort of unhelpful platitudes as "Pull yourself together!" If you can explain to a depressive or anxious person HOW they're supposed to do those things when they can barely hold their minds together, then maybe that might be more helpful to them.

Re: Is it just me?-OP

(Anonymous) - 2015-03-15 01:00 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Is it just me?-OP

(Anonymous) - 2015-03-15 01:33 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Is it just me?

(Anonymous) - 2015-03-15 01:29 (UTC) - Expand

anhedonia (lack of pleasure) is actually a big red flag for depression, but one that goes overlooked because most of depression recognition focuses on negative feelings. Not feeling anything at all is just as bad.

I'm pretty anhedonic myself, anon, and yeah, I know a smart person would go and get diagnosed and then treated. I never claimed to be smart.

yeah, depression isn't always just a vortex of despair. sometimes it's just a quiet dullness

as for the op:

unfortunately i can't think of another way to solve it than to go down a list of possible depression causes (nutritional unbalances, emotional trauma, environmental stress, weather, etc.), preferably with the help of people who actually know how to diagnose and treat it until you can narrow down what's causing it and then start the process of figuring out what helps and what doesn't

which, uh, does sound double-triple-dog daunting if you're already apathetic about things, yeah

i wish you and anon i'm replying to and everyone in the thread the best of outcomes, for whatever that is worth

This's the time to do something boring that you were putting off, anon. Maybe you never got around to sorting files on your laptop or creating a Twitter account and adding people to it.

I cleaned out my bookmarks file of sites that no longer exist. Now I have almost nothing in my bookmark file. All the personal sites are gone. The web's gotten all corporate. What happened?

Now, that doesn't sound right. Idk. Check your recycle bin and recover sites that got there by mistake? It can't be that all the sites no longer exist. Can it?

I feel that way, but I also know there's a lot of negative stuff going on in my personal life that leeches any enthusiasm for things too. I don't know if that's the case for you too, but don't underestimate the effect factors like that have on you.

I was also turned off the last thing I invested in when the community surrounding it turned highly toxic and harmful, which has made me a little gunshy of trying to engage that deeply with anything else. Bad experiences like that can also make someone wary of letting themselves get invested.

The converse can also be true; if the last thing you invested in was so overwhelming and meaningful, then that can also exhaust you for a while afterwards, when nothing new seems to match up to that feeling.

Or there's also the possibility that all the new stuff that might appeal to you really isn't that good or engaging right now. E.g. there are some years where I'll have so many shows I'm keeping up with that I find it hard finding the time, and the next year there'll be literally nothing that interests me whatsoever.

You don't mention anything else that might be causing this feeling, but as others have said losing interest in the things you once cared about can be a sign of depression, so if you also have other symptoms going on too (I wouldn't count losing interest in and of itself to be a sure sign because there are a lot of other reasons it might happen, but when it's coupled with other factors it could be) then it might be something to consider.

Nah, I've been feeling this way for a while now. But that's mostly because of irl stuff happening that has me emotionally stunned right now.

Said emotional stuff happenings imply my dad having passed away four months ago and that feeling finally dawning on me. I think the sooner I acccept it and stop sucking up all the feelings, the sooner I can start with the healing.

Edited 2015-03-14 23:22 (UTC)

Honestly that sounds like depression. And it's not just you, but it's probably especially not just you because it's March, meaning late-winter-early-spring in the entire northern hemisphere.

Hopefully when spring rolls around for real things will get better! If they don't, I'd suggest seeing someone about it. Not trying to internet diagnose or anything, but if you feel this way for a long time on end, it's not a good thing and you should probably get it checked out.

I dunno. I honestly feel like I cannot even remember what the things I used to enjoy were. I opened up AO3 and then I just sat for ten minutes trying to remember what fandoms I actually was into. I can't even remember what my hobbies are. I must have read something, or done something for a hobby or to support a hobby. I can't remember what though.

Huh.

Not much I can say to that. I mean it might still be depression or some other thing fucking with your brain. Memory issues? IDK, that's way outside of the realm of my personal experience.

I hope it gets better, at any rate.

I feel that way but only because I am so busy I don't have time to worry about fun things like that right now. I'm sure I would find something if I weren't so tied up in stuff.

As a person commenting from the other side of world, all I can say is "been there... kinda done that?"

To elaborate: in Malaysia, there are several periods in the year in which there's literally nothing to do, mainly because of ethnic/cultural/religious celebrations. Until the last few years, all I do during these periods of nothingness is to sleep it off or go to the Internet, which only makes me view everything more monotonously as time goes on. The only thing that kept me from getting depressed is due to my mom and dad taking me to this wedding or that gathering, so that I'm not truly cut-off from the world.

Now, I try to avoid that by doing something and keeping myself engaged when the holidays arrive. There is a site called Alternatehistory.com where I have been visiting for over a year (and unfortunately making me stay away from F!S.) I now have a story/timeline of my own over there, so I have to write on a weekly/fortnightly basis to update it, making me engaged and have a deadline to set.

In my house there's a piano, a remannt from a time when my mom, my sister and I were in piano tuition. Recently, I've began learning how to play, on my own, Quelattio's "Blue Sea of 53 minutes" by ZUN , because of just how beautiful it sounds on YouTube. relearning where the fingers go is challenging, but I'm persevering it because of the music I can make again, as well as making me do something when I'm at home doing nothing.

Sometimes if the weather's good, I go to the local commuter station (if by local, I mean "the next 10 neighbourhoods over") and take the train to Kuala Lumpur so that my mind is engaged in exploring the city. I've discovered a lot on my own feet and my own eyes than through my usual family trips. Also, I can now go to one of my fav bookstores now! It might not sound like much, but in a country where driving is important to get to the best places, doing this is liberating for me.

So yeah, that's how I keep myself engaged when I feel down and monotone. It's not much, and I dunno how much this will help you or how will you apply it, but I hope it helps in at least some way. Take care.

Edited 2015-03-15 10:38 (UTC)

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