[ SECRET POST #3227 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3227 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Mary McDonnell, Battlestar Galactica, Major Crimes]


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03.
[Deadly Premonition]


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04.
[The Walking Dead, Glenn Rhee]


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05.
[Bill Skarsgård]


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08. http://i.imgur.com/LAq54d4.jpg
[link for random penis]









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Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
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Comments

Re: Can I +1 this?

[(Anonymous)]

AYRT

So you just concisely articulated my exact feelings about this, holy shit.

"just like a sack of gross fluids that keep trying to leak out."

Yes. This is one of the problems I have with being human. Not the only problem, but a huge one definitely. My body terrifies me, because it breaks and malfunctions and becomes sick and weak so easily, and there's nothing I can do about it short of living in a plastic bubble and completely cutting myself off the entire world.

"being healthy isn't enough [...] I want to not play this game anymore, to have something better and purer than this."

Yes yes yes a thousand times yes.

Re: Can I +1 this?

[(Anonymous)]

... that's not dysphoria. it's disillusionment. we all believe we are immortal until we don't and that shocks us. the wish to have something purer, something eternal has always surfaced in cultural expressions in the form of religious devotion (rebirth or enlightenment), immortality (fountain of youth, vampirism) and the like. You basically have two ways to deal with it. a) you learn to embrace your mortality and that of your body, and learn to love the malfunctions and the gross fluids, or at the veryleast accept them, or b) find some way to lie to yourself about it, or, if you will, find a belief to rely on, that promises you something purer.
To be honest, I'm doing both, and I think most people are. I think it was Freud who said that even if we try we can't comprehend the idea of our own death so whether we will or not we keep thinking ourselves immortal.
I love getting older, and I've found so many positive things about my body since I've had a child (something I couldn't even imagine before), but I'll still be the spellbound demon who waits forever for her vampire lady to find her, and I'll be reborn again and again until we finally meet-