[ SECRET POST #3232 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3232 ⌋

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(Beyoncé)


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[Spider-Gwen/Marvel]


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[Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart]


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[Monogatari]


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[Legend of Heroes: Trails in the Sky FC]


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[Doctor Who]


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[Dragon Ball Z]








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Comments

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

People think I'm depressed and maybe that's true, but it doesn't manifest in lethargy or sadness, I'm angry. I'm angry about everything and I want to get violent. I really want to hurt people. I keep hoping someone will give me an excuse, any excuse at all to just fuck them up, like hair-grabbing face-smashing make-'em-bleed leave-'em-for-dead fuck them up. I'm so fucking angry. But I'm also really good at shutting up and hiding it, so people think I'm either shy or sad.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

Holy shit, this is me.

Sometimes, I'll fantasize about letting out the rage during those quiet times as well.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt

Thank god, I'm glad someone understands. It scares me, but that doesn't change the feeling at all.

Just today I was on the bus with my phone out, and I saw a guy move towards me-- my first thought was that I actually hoped he was coming to snag my phone (there's been a problem with that on public transit lately) because I was 100% ready to get the jump on him. I had a plan and vivid fantasies of exactly what I'd hit first, and how much damage I could do before getting pulled off him.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

Maybe get a punching bag? You could pin different people's photos to it every day depending on who pissed you off/for variety.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt

I know this is going to sound fucked up, but that isn't good enough, I've tried it. It just makes me angrier. I honestly think it's because I'm not really hurting anyone that it doesn't work at all.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

This is going to sound bitchy and mean, and I honestly don't mean it that way, but have you thought about getting help? Obviously, I don't know what your situation is, whether you've got something painful in your past you haven't dealt with, or if everything has just always kind of pissed you off in general. But constantly entertaining thoughts about hurting the shit out of people when they've done nothing to you does not sound healthy in the least.

Yes, you're entitled to your off days. Everyone is. But it sounds like you have a disproportionate amount of "off" days to "on" and I would hate to be the person who is nearest to you if/when you stop being "really good at shutting up and hiding it" and give into an episode.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt

Of course, and I want to, but I honestly can't afford it. I'm barely making ends meet as is, I really can't have any extraneous spending in my budget. It's kind of the choice between mental health and food, unfortunately.

Re: Things you wanna say but have no one to say them to

[(Anonymous)]

I understand this, anon. I have become very bitter at the people around me, even though I still love them. My patience with people and the things they complain about and go on about just piss me off more often than not. And all the things that don't go right or are draining make me just angry. It's not a constant thing for me, but when I do feel it, I sometimes feel like my anger is disproportionate to the issues. If it makes you feel any better, I mentioned this to my therapist and she said that it's okay to have thoughts like that, just as long as you understand the difference between acting on them (basically your conscience). Like the anon above said, if/when you can get help I hope you can, but don't hate on yourself for your feelings manifesting this way just because you are frustrated/depressed. I really hope you feel better soon or find a healthy outlet.