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The problem is, I'm not talented at biology like I am in English or anything else. I was in the top 5% of my class last semester, but at the same time, completely miserable. I don't know how to deal with that. I figure I'll fail either way.

What if you pursued something like editing a medical journal? You could use your talents in English to connect with the medical world.

I don't know then honestly. I don't think most people enjoy la school. I enjoyed the internships and some of the subjects (anything immigration or human rights related mostly). But other things I loathed. I barely made it through secured transactions.

Once you have a law degree there are a lot of things you can do with it. You don't have to be a lawyer, and there are different kinds of lawyers.

But if just forcing yourself through the last few years is making you suicidal, your survival and well being matters. You need to take care of yourself. Does your school have therapists you could talk to? There were a few points for me where I got suicidal and needed to talk to someone.

And honestly, right now, taking the bar for the second time and terrified of failing again I've had a few small thoughts that it would be easier if I just killed myself before I could be a failure again. But I've managed to brush those thoughts away. And once I'm through the bar I'm going to look into affordable therapists in my area.

I like immigration law too. It's just that forcing myself through several hours a day of reading and getting cold called and the competitive/antisocial nature of my classmates is getting to me. My professor grilled me on a cold call last week and I had to go cry in my car after. I just don't feel like I can handle any of it. The theory and policy goes past my head. The cases are excruciating and my professors say they're "written beautifully" and I just cannot understand what they're saying.

They might. The school is very connected to my family. I'm afraid I might bias them to my family because of visiting the center.

Oh god, cold calling. Cold calling is the worst. At my law school only a few professors used it, and the few that did mostly would have you answer just one question. The other professors would assign us days we were on call so we'd know which days to know the reading really well.

But then again my law school does its own thing. We also did quarters and alternated between classes and internships the second and third years. And we had written evaluations rather than grades and no class ranking.

I'm honestly not sure I could have survived a normal law school. I don't do well in pressured environments even though I'm pretty smart.

I'm in the evening program and working during the day. So usually I leave the house at 7:30, come home 10:40, read until 1:00. It's stressful. I don't know how to continue doing it.

I like how your law school sounds. I think mine is pretty typical.

You're working while in law school? Holy crap. No wonder your stressed. At my law school we weren't allowed to work more than 10 hours a week (though some people did anyway). Law school is basically a full time job with how much reading you have.

Of course I now have crippling debt that terrifies me. But I don't think I could have done law school and worked. That's way too much work.

It's a little bit less work than the day program students. We have one full course (like for example torts, property, crim). And then two full year courses (1/2 each semester). And then legal writing/lawyering or whatever it is your school might have called it.

It's less work, but it feels like a lot. 11 hrs a week of classes, 10 hrs a week of reading, feels like a lot. I didn't do work this weekend at all either.

I'm still impressed. Law school reading is intense. I would sometimes have to read a case three or four times to get it. And I'm a fast reader. Slower readers would take several hours a day to get through the reading. It takes up a lot of your brain's energy, so having to focus on work as well is a lot.

I hope you figure out what's best for you and what you need.

Oh, and there is no reason for them to tell your parents you are seeing a therapist on campus. In fact they legally can't. Usually school clinics allow a certain number of free visits. And if not it should be covered by your insurance.

Can I ask what you mean when you say you'r not "talented at biology"?

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