[ SECRET POST #3388 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3388 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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02.
[Pokémon, John Lone]


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03.
[Mass Effect/Dragon Age]


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04.
[Fire Emblem]


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05.
[Bleach]


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06.
[Lord of the Rings]


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07.
[The Aliens]


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08.
(Stardew Valley)


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09.
[Caitlyn Jenner]


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10.
[Rupaul's Drag Race, Acid Betty]










Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 038 secrets from Secret Submission Post #484.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
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Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

I don't know why or where it came from but I was just hit by a wave of self loathing, I guess it's my depression again. I didn't want to die, it was worse.

I wanted to make myself suffer. Suffer excruciating pain and be a bloodstain on the ground. I wanted to hurt myself just to punish myself for feeling, I don't know something. Because I'm just a shit person.

I hate this and I wish it would go away.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

I have a horrible feeling I know who you are. If I'm right, would you please turn your mobile on so I can call you?

And if I'm not right, please turn your mobile on and call someone. It doesn't matter if you think they wont want to hear from you, if you need support, find it. Work out who is more likely to help and be sympathetic, even if that "Most likely" doesn't seem to add up to very much, find your best option, and reach out t them.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think I am, sorry.

and I'll try. Thank you. I didn't want to worry anyone, especially not for something I have no real reason to be feeling.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

That really doesn't matter. Your feelings drive you to real actions. If the only thing that's wrong is how you feel about something then that is real, because a deep feeling about something trivial can do so much more harm than a trivial feeling about something deep, You know? Your reaction is what you need help and support with, not necessarily the situation that brought it about.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[kallanda_lee]

Is there someone you can talk to?

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

I think so. I didn't want to worry anyone around me but I think there is probably someone I can talk to. Probably should have tried that first.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[kallanda_lee]

It's not that you can't talk to us! But it might help, especially if this person can be a grounding influence.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[sparrow_lately]

:(

I think if there's anyone at all you can reach out to, you should. You don't even have to talk about anything heavy, just not be alone with this stuff.

Remember you're neither a burden nor a waste of space nor anything else shitty brain chemistry will tell you. You deserve to be here and feel good and loved and you're worthy of the work and time that can take sometimes.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks. That really helps.

It's frustrating because I take medicine for this and I was told that it was supposed to stabilize my moods and keep them from going extreme.

It's easier to admit to being down when you have a reason. Sometimes I just don't.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[sparrow_lately]

That's ok. It happens and it's just chemistry fucking around. I'm sorry :(

Re: TW self destructive shit

[herpymcderp]

Is this a recurring thing?

Often times people who are prone to these kinds of episodes of ideation can have them triggered by things like too much caffeine, not enough sleep, too much stress, reactions to new medication, or even vitamin deficiency. Do any of those sound like possibilities here?

If not, and if I were you, I would just put myself to bed with a hot water bottle and see if a nap helps.

Re: TW self destructive shit

[(Anonymous)]

Occasionally.

I have mood swings. Sometimes I'll swing toward a depressed mood. Sometimes I have caffeine at work, that might be it.

Thank you for your help.