[ SECRET POST #3421 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3421 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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02.
[Selena Gomez/Orlando Bloom]


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03.
[Fullmetal Alchemist]


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04.
[Vocaloid, Hatsune Miku]


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05.
[The Great British Bake Off]


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06.
[Anne of Green Gables/Anne of Avonlea]


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07.
[Pokémon Sun and Moon]


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08.
[iZombie]


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09.
[Etrian Odyssey]
















Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 042 secrets from Secret Submission Post #489.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Re: Disability/chronic illness talk

[lb_lee]

Enh, everyone on this site likely knows what we got. :p

We have episodes every week, where we are bombarded by memories and regurgitated emotions or physical sensations of the rapes we sustained from the ages of five to nineteen. (These range in severity to ordinary sexual assault, to rapes with beatings, to chokings.) Sometimes these episodes will hit in public, where I just start shaking, rocking, and mumbling on public transit. (Because it's that or start flailing and screaming, and why bother the nice people on the train, you know?)

We can not make these episodes stop. If we try, they will just erupt at even worse moments. We can be victims or volunteers, and we have chosen to be volunteers.

All of this has been happening for coming up on two years now, and we will probably be doing this for a very long time yet. One day, it will be over.

But the worst part is the constant uncertainty over whether these memories are even true. We don't know. We have no way of proving them, except checking our records and trying to compare what little we know. So for all I know, we're just having these massive horrorshows in our head FOR ABSOLUTELY NO PURPOSE WHATSOEVER.

And then you have all the social services bullshit. I won't even get into that.

This week I've been dealing with memories telling me my mother knew I was being assaulted by other family members, and dealt with it by trying to kill me. I never thought I'd find myself saying, "why couldn't it just be rape?" but here we are.

--Rogan

Re: Disability/chronic illness talk

[belladonna_took]

It's interesting to me that dissociation and dissociative disorders are so hard to understand and explain, even in your own mind. Maybe in another hundred years our classification and treatments for mental illnesses and trauma will sound as bizarre to the new generation as the previous century's do to us now.

I hope you have lots of support and you're taking care of yourself. It sounds like you've had a rough time.

Re: Disability/chronic illness talk

[lb_lee]

Yeah, and I HATE that about them. The whole reason I went into the line of work I did (educational comics) is that so many things about dissociative disorders were florid and melodramatic and AWFUL. I wanted so badly for there to be something more practical.

I do have a lot of support right now, thankfully. It's just so SURREAL, you know?

Re: Disability/chronic illness talk

[belladonna_took]

I think it's awesome that there are blogs (and comics!) from the perspectives of so many people living with mental illness now.

You can read all the medical terminology and talk to all the specialists you want, but it's not the same as knowing that other people have the same problems you have and they've lived them.

Re: Disability/chronic illness talk

[lb_lee]

I know, there are so many great comics and blogs about it now. It's such a lifesaver, having that down-to-earth, practical talk about it. It helps demystify it for a lot of folks, I think.