[ SECRET POST #3516 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3516 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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The entire rest of this post is either spoilers or have content warnings.





02. [SPOILERS for Over the Hills and Far Away]



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03. [SPOILERS for Pokemon Sun and Moon]



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04. [SPOILERS for Inside]



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05. [SPOILERS for The Girl With All The Gifts]



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06. [SPOILERS for Steven Universe]
[WARNING for suicide]



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07. [WARNING for non-con]



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08. [WARNING for incest]




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09. [WARNING for suicide]












Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 00 pages, 00 secrets from Secret Submission Post #502.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[kallanda_lee]

As someone who was also once suicidal - I dunno, man.

While not terminal, it can be incurable/untreatable. If I ever get back to when I was at my worst, and get another decade of that - I don't know what my choice would be. I'm not now, but I still have a decent support network, but maybe by the time I'm 40 or 50 I'll have no-one left, you know? I don't think I'll even be a fully functional adult, and that's fine as long as I have people to help me - but if those are gone, I can see myself choosing that.

[philstar22]

Yup. When I was at my worst, the only emotion I felt was fear. I had panic attacks at least once a day and other than that sat in my room and did nothing and was completely miserable. If I knew I was going to go back to that point and have to spend the rest of my life like that, I'm not sure I could. And I just had depression and anxiety, there are much worse types of mental illness to have.

[kallanda_lee]

Yeah the constant fear is just....soul destroying. And I just remember losing all the things one by one. My ability to love an to hope went out the door in the end, too. At this point you sort of wonder how much of that is still "you". And another thing is I can really lash out in that state, and not be safe for other people to be around....so nope, nope.

[philstar22]

Yup. And combining fear with my untreated vertigo, and I used to be terrified that the Earth was falling out of orbit and I was the only one who could feel it for some reason. And then there was also the religious fear due to growing up in a very conservative, fundamentalist environment. And combining that with the complete lack of self esteem and hating myself and I was pretty miserable as a child.

Although, I will say that the fear that I was going to Hell may have actually saved my life because there definitely were points where it was the only reason I didn't kill myself.