i feel like I am having a mental breakdown and I don't know who to talk to. I ended up sitting on the empty sidewalk of a random street today cause i was crying too hard to keep walking home, and I don't think anyone saw me but it still feels so humiliating. I feel nauseous but maybe thats because I haven't anything but some pieces of bread in the past 8 hours, but I feel too sick to get up and cook something. I feel like I'm going crazy. my brain is in a scary place

I kind of want to call a suicide hotline but I don't want them calling the police on me or something. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to.

I am sorry about posting this here I know its annoying but this is just the only place i could think of. I am sorry. I really am.