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⌈ Secret Post #3687 ⌋

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OP

[(Anonymous)]

I want to clarify, in case it helps, I am all of the things you guys mentioned, asexual, sex-repulsed, and autistic. I would guess that the last one has more to do with it than the first two, I don't think being grossed out by sex would make it physically feel different. (As a really bad example, novelty chocolate made to look like poop still tastes like chocolate, right? I know autism can make sensations different, but I've never had that before, besides how I have to cut out all the tags in my clothes. So I didn't think of mentioning it.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

Have you been to a doctor to ensure there is nothing medical going on? Random physical pains like that should not be ignored.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

It's never happened before. I can ask my doctor, but I'm afraid she'll want to look, and I don't want anybody, even doctors, looking at my privates. Even if it's an emergency, it would still be very upsetting to me, so much that I'd prefer to assume it's a normal feeling that feels uncomfortable because of my autism, and hope it won't happen often.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

It may be upsetting but it is also a necessity. My niece has moderate autism. She still has to go to the doctor so that she doesn't die or anything from an undiagnosed problem.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

I think what I'm going to do is, I'll make a list of all of the little medical questions I've had, but haven't asked because they seem so minor and unharmful, including this, and ask my doctor about all of them at once. Then, even if there's nothing wrong with me, at least I got a lot of questions out of the way, not just one.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

Even if it's an emergency, it would still be very upsetting to me, so much that I'd prefer to assume it's a normal feeling that feels uncomfortable because of my autism,

Please don't do that. I know it might be terribly uncomfortable, embarrassing, terrifying, whathaveyou, but that's like tripping and breaking a leg and thinking, "Well going to the doctor would be [all of the above] so I'm just going to assume this is normal pain because I tripped and hope it doesn't bother me too much."

Temporary discomfort to rule out something potentially serious can suck, but it's something that should be done.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

DA

I have this sort of problem too - I haven't been to the doctors for that sort of check up ever. I just don't want to force some poor doctor to have to look at my horrible private parts and have to deal with my problems.

I know I should go, at some point, but I just haven't been able to make myself.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

"Horrible private parts" ... Uh. That's not normal, or at least, it shouldn't be, although people raised by certain religioue groups to think that way is depressingly common. Pink squishy floppy bits aren't horrible, anon, although sometimes they can be silly. Unless maybe you have actual vagina dentata and you're periodically woken in the night by your vagina going "feed me, Seymour!" at you. Dicks and vaginas aren't horrible, although if you're trans apparently it can really suck to feel like you have the wrong, uh, attachments, so to speak.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

Is it maybe a control thing, then? Like, your body is doing this thing you don't want it to, and since it feels like it (your arousal) is making you physically feel things you don't want to, maybe it's not the sensation itself so much as that as far as your body's concerned, it doesn't give a shit that your brain belongs to an asexual sex-repulsed autistic person, it wants an orgasm, but "you," your brain and self, are like "body, wtf are you doing? Stop that!"

Also, as an autistic person who's not sex-repulsed, sometimes when I'm aroused but not particularly by anything or anyone specific, it does get a little annoying. Like, comparing having sex/masturbating to scratching an itch doesn't always seem like a fair comparison to me, but then it does, because it's like my brain isn't involved and it's just a physical sensation, about as interesting as one of those really annoying itches between your shoulderblades.

Re: OP

[(Anonymous)]

Is it maybe a control thing, then? Like, your body is doing this thing you don't want it to, and since it feels like it (your arousal) is making you physically feel things you don't want to, maybe it's not the sensation itself so much as that as far as your body's concerned, it doesn't give a shit that your brain belongs to an asexual sex-repulsed autistic person

I'm the ace anon below, and this is what I was thinking too. It's pretty much exactly how I felt about orgasms when I was a little kid and they would just come on really suddenly.

Furthermore, I would guess it's both a control thing, as you've said, and also a matter of interpretation. Not like "thinking it through" interpretation, but just the very automatic way that a person's brain interprets the feeling of arousal. For most people I think there's a kind of instinctual understanding of that feeling, which makes the person able to recognize such a strong feeling as pleasure. But if the brain and the body aren't speaking to each other in order to form that instinctive "understanding," then it's not hard to see how something that feels so strong might not automatically be interpreted as good. Kind of like if you have amusia (that thing where you're brain doesn't perceive melody) and your roommate suddenly starts playing the radio loudly.