I really, really want to stop feeling like a butthurt brat every time I see you and sutlers mentioned somewhere on my friends list. It does happen sometime, and every single time, I feel regret, and can’t stop that sinking feeling in my stomach from returning.
We met during very unfortunate circumstances, though as I apprehended it, we made up back than and also agreed to maybe trying to see if we had some common ground which could lead to friendship one day. Those plans pretty much died down, although I’ve still felt hopeful that if I decide to talk to you sometime, or you to me, we’d be able to have a nice conversation. You do seem like a very pleasant person, at least from what I read in your LJ, as I do stop by there from time to time ^^
Still… I did start to question how this turn of events (sutlers banning me from commenting in her journal) could have happened if we still felt the same way about a possible future friendship as we did back then. Has something happened that I am not aware of, like the two of you finding something about my behaviour back then or afterwards unpleasant? In that case, please do tell me what I did, because I assure you that I’m not aware of it in the least. I’d never do anything that would make someone ban me or thing negatively about me on purpose, and to continue to feel like I did something wrong is eating me up. I’m of course not thinking about it all the time, but as I said, I cannot see either yours or her username on my f-list without starting to think about this, and it… makes me feel like I’m being childish and stupid to not be able to move on without knowing what happened).
And as I also said to Sutlers, I’m not "crawling to the cross" or anything, I’m just asking for an explanation. If you don’t have the time or will to explain, I guess that’s fine too, but I really don’t like leaving things unsolved.
Ahaha and yeah, please ignore any mistakes made in there? I'm trying to not let my state of mind affect my writing, but I might not have succeeded fully ^^;
Not the OP, but hello!
I really, really want to stop feeling like a butthurt brat every time I see you and
We met during very unfortunate circumstances, though as I apprehended it, we made up back than and also agreed to maybe trying to see if we had some common ground which could lead to friendship one day. Those plans pretty much died down, although I’ve still felt hopeful that if I decide to talk to you sometime, or you to me, we’d be able to have a nice conversation. You do seem like a very pleasant person, at least from what I read in your LJ, as I do stop by there from time to time ^^
Still… I did start to question how this turn of events (
And as I also said to Sutlers, I’m not "crawling to the cross" or anything, I’m just asking for an explanation. If you don’t have the time or will to explain, I guess that’s fine too, but I really don’t like leaving things unsolved.
Ahaha and yeah, please ignore any mistakes made in there? I'm trying to not let my state of mind affect my writing, but I might not have succeeded fully ^^;