[ SECRET POST #3774 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3774 ⌋

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Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

List the ones you have here.

SA

[(Anonymous)]

All right, so. A comment the other day reminded me of this. For me, it was the opinion of my psychologist as child that I had Asperger's Syndrome (something I only found out as an adult). I've never gotten an official diagnosis, but it would explain a lot. Anyway, I bring this up because I have trouble reading people a lot, and that can extend to fictional characters too. There's always a part of me that's worried that I'm one of "those" fans that reads the text unbelievably wrong.

Re: SA

[(Anonymous)]

Me too. I've started seeing a lot of discussions about how fandom loves in depth analysis of emotions and motivations etc and while I do enjoy that stuff to a point it's also very hard for me to grasp. It makes me feel out of place and hesitant to talk to people.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

When Case updates late, I worry he's died or finally given up on F!S.

even though I acknowledge that he's a human and not a robot, and really what's unusual is how he can update so regularly at all. still though, please don't die case

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

seconded

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

We love you, Case.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[diet_poison]

haha, this just speaks to how consistent he is.

(reminds me of how I used to get really nervous if my mom came back hours after she said she would when I was in high school and she went out for the evening. Like I would get really afraid something terrible had happened. with Case though I just tend to assume it's work, maybe because I get held up sometimes so I know how it is?)

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

NAYRT

reminds me of how I used to get really nervous if my mom came back hours after she said she would when I was in high school and she went out for the evening. Like I would get really afraid something terrible had happened.

Oh, man, same here.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I'm thinking of a very popular ship (reylo) that I dislike strongly. I just avoid it, crack some jokes, don't harass people about it.

BUT there's another ship (FB - the wizard guy who's being abused and the other guy in disguise?) in a different fandom that might be kind of similar (honestly I didn't even finish the movie, just read the synopsis) that I see the appeal of and kind of like and it makes me feel like a hypocrite.

I probably am, but hell, who isn't these days.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

Liking one ship and not another does not make you a dang ol hypocrite

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I spaced on mentioning it could swing either way. I don't like reylo any which way, but with the second ship it could be straight, what, love? (new to these new shipping terms) or manipulation and i'd be o.k with it.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I feel like we all have exceptions to the rule when it comes to ships. Like I normally hate the "I want to be with you but can't~" trope but I will for some reason always and forever ship Rogue/Gambit.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[diet_poison]

You're not a hypocrite, though now I'm really curious to know what you dislike about Reylo and what you like about the other ship. There probably are differences that really matter in terms of your taste. (full disclosure, I also dislike Reylo, and am not familiar with the other ship)

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

If it helps, there's a pairing in my fandom that hits almost every single thing I usually love in a pairing... and I don't like it, at all. I just quietly avoid it though.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

Possibly? Youre not giving reasons, so it's hard to know. At least you're aware of the chance that you are hypocritical. I know one anti-Reylo who hates the ship because she thinks it's incestuous, but loves Lucrezia/Cesare from The Borgias.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[diet_poison]

I plunged really hard and fast into a new fandom and OTP and really dislike some of the competing ships (the latter bit is somewhat unusual for me) and got way too emotionally invested, and it made me a little bit anxious on and off for a few weeks. I've pulled back though lol. (this was pretty recent)

Anyone else have that experience?

I think part of it is because I hadn't really been into a particular fandom for a little while so there was a bit of a fandom vacuum, and I was a little obsessed for a few weeks. Dialed it back though, thank goodness.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

lol yeah that's happened to me before. Multiple times, so it's a conscious effort to rein myself in, unfortunately.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I'm a bisexual mostly drawn to het ships. I'm kind of nervous that my fellow lgbtqia friends judge me for it, based off of some comments they've made about other people.

I mean, I should be asking myself why I'm drawn to het so much more, and I do. But it still happens.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[philstar22]

If they are judging you for it, they aren't right in that. You ship what you ship, and it doesn't say anything about your sexuality. I'm bi, and most of my current active ships are slash with a couple het. The only femslash ship I actively shipped has ended in canon, and I've moved away from that canon anyway, so I don't really have femslash ships at the moment. Doesn't make me any less bi.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

About 10 years ago, I got into fandom for the first time, and fell HARD. Like full-on obsession, thought about it every waking moment, posted pretty much 24-7 on Livejournal and fanboards about it, it was my whole life. That lasted 2 years, and I burned myself out on fandom in general from that.

Ever since, I've really loved certain shows and book series a whole lot, but I've never fully engaged with fandom at the same level because I'd think back to that first fandom experience and feel like, "Ugghhhhh, I don't have the energy to do that again!"

So I just lurk a lot. I still read a ton of fic, I follow a ton of fandom tumblr blogs, but I don't post meta or make original art or playlists or write, I don't make fandom friends...

And it kind of makes me sad, like I've deliberately cut myself off from a community that could be a lot of fun to engage with, so I do randomly post deeper things or my opinions about stuff...but then I don't get any response and I feel like I'm like some weird girl at a party that no one seems to know or understand what she's doing there.

But on the other hand, there's a lot of fucked up or just plain embarrassing stuff that goes on in fandom, and I'm really glad I can distance myself from that, so I don't necessarily want to engage on a more social level, either.

I don't know, I feel weird and uncomfortable a lot of the time.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

As far as I can tell I think tumblr makes a lot of us feel this way, but it's also what makes it so accessible. It's kind of fucked up.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I do little prompt drabbles sometimes. The last time I opened up for them I got a few, started working, and then someone went anon and started barraging me with five or six messages a day wanting to know how they were coming, why was it taking so long, when would I post them, had I decided not to do them. I answered a few of them politely and then just... stopped. Eventually they stopped messaging me. But I haven't done any prompts since then.

And I keep sort of wanting to open up prompts again, but I'm so nervous the anon would come back. And it wasn't even anything mean, just so demanding that it kind of freaked me out. I feel like such a weenie for being anxious about it.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

You're not a weenie, that anon was really rude and kind of batshit, tbh. Open up prompts if you want to but make it clear that behavior like that is NOT okay.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I kind of "joined" a tiny tumblr fandom but I've never used any of the tumblr communication tools so I'm weirdly anxious about... etiquette I guess? Things like sending messages to people I don't follow. I don't know. I guess it's just that crippling social anxiety again.

Re: Weird Fandom Anxieties

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think it's anything to worry about. Just be polite and laid back and for the love of god don't message people with requests to check out your blog, reblog your posts, etc.