[ SECRET POST #4380 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4380 ⌋

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I just wanted to vent online somewhere and I don't really know where else to do this

[(Anonymous)]

I hate this. I hate my whole existence. I feel like my brain is irreparably broken, that I'm just a useless flesh lump. It was a struggle today just to get out of my bed, take a shower and clean my apartment, and I still didn't get everything done today that I should have. I don't think I want to die, I just think I don't want to exist for a while. It doesn't help that one of my meds has run out and I haven't scheduled an appointment with my psychiatrist yet so I don't know how long it will be before I can get a prescription refill. And I may be needing to change my meds anyway because I don't think they're working anymore, except I can't tell how much of me is messed up because I'm just not on the right medications and how much of me is messed up because I'm just a lazy fuck. I know I ought to get out more but I don't think I'm fit to be around people right now because I think I'd just go to pieces and start crying and screaming. But I hate feeling trapped in my head with no one to talk to. At least I have my therapist on Saturday.

Re: I just wanted to vent online somewhere and I don't really know where else to do this

[cakemage]

I'm sorry you're going through all of this, Anon. For what it's worth, I think the fact that you're still making the effort to get up, shower and clean is a big accomplishment in and of itself when you're dealing with a major depressive episode like this, even if you don't manage to accomplish everything you wanted to. Sometimes you've just gotta take the small victories where you can, you know? Hang in there and make the appointment with your psychiatrist as soon as you can. If you need someone to talk to in the meantime while you're waiting for your appointment with your therapist, you're welcome to PM me. I don't know how much help I'll be, but I'm willing to listen if you need to vent some more.

Re: I just wanted to vent online somewhere and I don't really know where else to do this

[(Anonymous)]

Hey, I’m impressed you managed to clean your apartment; I’m terrible at cleaning even when my brain isn’t screaming at me. I’m sorry you’re feeling down. There’s nothing wrong with venting here; I know I have. I hope it helps. Just hold out until Saturday. Maybe your therapist can get in touch with your/a psychiatrist about re-upping/adjusting your meds? Good luck and also (hugs).