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⌈ Secret Post #4395 ⌋

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Re: Where do you find meaning in your life?

[(Anonymous)]

Oh hey, I actually like you lol The universe thing is more of a dismissive summation of my feelings about humans being a thing. Some of the things that have happened to people, it'd just have been "worth" it to me that humans never existed to prevent that kind of suffering entirely. I know I'm supposed to look for the helpers, can't have joy without pain, etc. But the people who've said that to me have really sanitized views of the world and experience suffering as distanced from reality as like, tv violence is.

My therapist told me to stop doing it now but for a while I coped with some childhood trauma by reading the accounts of survivors who had it so much "worse" than me. And as bad as reading it was I know mentally, there's so much detail I could never truly imagine. It's hard to explain to people who can't relate, the worst part of my childhood was when there was the lack of stimulation. The traumatic times were so much more tolerable than the repetitive or just isolated parts because SOMETHING was happening.

Now that I'm not running on survival instinct and cane take care of myself, nothing makes me happy enough to be "worth" the day-to-day of mundane, mortal, everyday life full of all the stuff you gotta do just to maintain an okay existence. I'm not suicidal it's more this sense that I'm sitting around in an annoying waiting room until it happens anyway.

Re: Where do you find meaning in your life?

[tabaqui]

Hee.

I get that, yeah. 'It could have been worse, I'm actually lucky' - that makes sense, even if it's not exactly the best way to cope (since it kind of automatically downplays and minimizes what happened to *you*, which should never be a thing).

I think the people who try to explain away bad things are annoying. They just *happen*, and you cope, and move on. Not everything (probably nothing) has some ulterior motive or higher meaning or whatever.

I'm sorry you're not finding things in life that make you happy 'enough'. I feel lucky in myself that I do enjoy my life, despite stuff that's not necessarily bliss-making. And it's not like i'm a big star, an ultra-successful person, super-rich, whatever. I've just found my 'stuff'.

Good luck in finding yours.