Sometimes I feel the same way about family. Like my childhood wasn't bad, but I always come across characters with bad childhoods being portrayed respectively, and never seem to grasp with part of it is that bad. For me I'm always thinking, it could be worse, and if it's only a couple times it's (not fine, but) not that bad. (wow this comment is a mess, sorry bout that)

It's good you know what makes a healthy relationship now, and know that you deserve one!
: )