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fandomsecrets2019-09-30 05:38 pm
case) wrote in fandomsecrets2019-09-30 05:38 pm
[ SECRET POST #4651 ]
⌈ Secret Post #4651 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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[Full Out]
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[Stranger Things]
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[Terry Pratchett's Discworld series]
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[Prodigal Son]
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[Michael Sheen in Prodigal Son]
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[Suspiria (2018) / The Craft]
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Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 29 secrets from Secret Submission Post #666.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
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so I wrote you this book
(Anonymous) 2019-10-01 01:29 am (UTC)(link)Alright, I believe your intentions are good so I'll bite.
The truth is, nobody really understands gender dysphoria. In fact, even the medical guidelines that are in the DSM are incredibly vague, so it's not like I can point to any scientific studies with confidence and say "here it is! Here's where it comes from!" I drove myself crazy trying to figure it out, though.
I don't know where my dysphoria comes from. As near as I've been able to tell from personal experience, talking to others, and researching as much as possible, I believe it's a combination of biological and social factors, like lots of other things to do with the brain.
What I do know is this: I tried desperately hard to accept being a woman. In fact, I'm quite a feminine person. I joined a sorority in school. Had lots of girl friends growing up. But my experience with dysphoria was very real, profound, and painful. And it's BODILY, 100%, a visceral experience that is altogether difficult to put into words.
I felt elated the first time I passed as a boy, and my thought experiment (that I tell others to replicate if they're thinking of physical transition) was "if everyone I ever knew were dead and I were totally alone on the planet, what would I do? Who would I be?" And I knew I would want to transition.
Which made me go, "Oh, shit." Not only because it's really inconvenient to be a guy without a dick but also because I'm not a huge fan of dudes.
What I found for myself, eventually, was this: it was much, much more painful to try to remain a woman than to go through all the inconveniences (to put it lightly) of transitioning--and I'm saying this about 6 years ago. People were way less understanding then. I had to advocate for myself in a very real way.
And the dysphoria is not 100% gone. But it's WAY BETTER. In ways I can't even describe, it's so much better. I thought I'd give up after a year or so of HRT but I'm never going back. I feel right. I smell right (I know??). I look right. And for myself, and many other less fortunate trans people who were outright experimented on by curious psychiatrists looking to cure the dysphoria itself, HRT is the only thing that has worked.
In the far future, there may be a way to pinpoint dysphoria accurately and eliminate it without HRT. Which may pose some interesting ethical questions. But conversion therapy (as you've mentioned--it does exist and there is a huge history of it being attempted unsuccessfully on trans people) is our only other known method. We know that doesn't work. Some day there may very well be another way. But we're not there yet.
Re: so I wrote you this book
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Re: so I wrote you this book
(Anonymous) 2019-10-01 02:45 am (UTC)(link)Re: so I wrote you this book
(Anonymous) 2019-10-01 03:29 am (UTC)(link)