fandomsecrets | [ Secret Post #003 ]

Ah yes, the chess fic that had my inner fangirl crying because my plot idea was now being associated with RenoxRufus. ;_;

It was a good fic, though.

It followed this incident where some stupid fangirl had traced one of my TsengxRufus pieces and posted it without any indication that she had copied my work ... and some fangirls supported her because they liked the pairing. They were all, 'Well, I still like it' nevermind the fact that it was ripped.

I was all, 'WTF, mate? When did Tseng become Reno?' I think what made it most offensive was the fact that my art didn't suit her tastes so she thought to copy it and insert Reno instead and pass it off as her own. And so it kind of put me in a sour mood as far as the pairing goes. I'm usually to each their own ... but when I used to get on a near daily basis following the Japanese release of AC comments on my dA account such as, 'Nice, but I wish it was Reno there instead of Tseng.' I started getting the tiniest bit annoyed because it was if I owed those stupid fangirls something and should cater to their wants.

It's funny, because the real wank was started by the girl whose fic I had commented on when she decided that a nice constructive discussion about newer fans ruining the fandom completely against what I had advised since I knew it would turn into all out war. People got pissed, the post got deleted by the girl ... and then things gradually got nasty. I think because I was one of the only active prominent members at the time speaking my mind it was easy to pick me out from the rest of the crowd or something. I honestly dunno. I mean, there's my side of the story which is pretty civil and low key and there's what happened. I can't believe fanpersons still give a flying fuck after over a years time.

Actually ... I'll bet the fics that caused this shit are still up there. I'd suggest backtracking to late December 2005 and check out any RenoxRufus postings on there. I swear they're still up there ... I just don't really care to dredge them back up.

I have a faint recollection of that incident! It actually annoyed me too, because that was blatant art theft! But yeah, I've gotten those sort of comments too and I just say, "Well, if you want it so much, draw it yourself. :3 That's what I'm doing."

The more I hear of that incident, the more I'm glad I missed it. *dies* And augh, I'd rather not. I seriously dislike Reno/Rufus fanfiction enough to like.. quickly scroll over the page if I see the pairing listed there. *dies* Art I can look at, but.. writing.. no. *dies* Depending, really.

4.) Yeah, I agree here. I hate when people have to tear down a ship like that. I'm not sure if this is the case here, but I especially hate when people rip into someone else's ship just to glorify there own. Okay, I just hate all ship wank altogether.

9.) Fandom fighting is so lame. Like, I don't know, hating a character just to get back at someone. My old fandom (no, I'm not telling) used to hate on anyone who liked a character, because they were just lame fanboys/fangirls if they liked that character. >.O Guh!

13.) I think some of the make-up is awesome personally. Some of the stuff people can do is incredible. That's just weird old me though.

Oh man - one of the many bright, shining examples of why I dare not walk into the FF7 fandom without an HEV suit, a bloody, rusty crowbar, a red lightsaber, and enough morphine to kill a herd of elephants.

4: Honestly, I have no clue exactly what people think I did since apparently it was something so infamous that it still nags at people. What was said in one comment that actually was taken very graciously by the author was how she should attempt to justify the pairing more instead of simply writing PWP that made little sense as to why it would even happen. It was one of many RenoxRufus fics in the course of about a week that read the same way and had the general plot -- or lack thereof -- with Rufus being some mindless prick and Reno being slutty and annoying and it just made no sense as to why they'd be having sex. It was pretty well known that I wasn't fond of the pairing after a certain art theft incident that had taken place earlier in that month, but I'm usually unconcerned with what people bother liking since I don't expect everyone to like what I do and actually almost prefer it that way since when people do start liking things they start copying said things.

What happened afterwords will go down in ffvii_yaoi fandom history ... though I wasn't even directly connected to it. It ended up that some fans who thought it was there place to get involved in something they didn't even know the details about and attacking me. seraphim_sephy was there to witness it all. Like ... I seriously had complimented someone on a TsengxRufus fic they had written as well as a RudexReno fic and she attacked me with, 'Oh so you actually think someone else can write other than you.' It was bizarre since I dunno where this even came from. But yeah ... the whole thing was actually an indirect assumption by a lot of fans on there and I guess since there always has to be the one to blame ... I was the easiest target because I was known to be snarky at times and was fairly wellknown around there and people were intimidated by me for some unknown reason.

But really, hell if I know what happened. But it must have made some form of impact for people to still care over a year later. o_O

I actually have a clue ... it should have been obvious, but I initially didn't make the connection. >_>

Wait, I think I remember this! Was the fic by uhhh, karose or something like that? *dies*the one that wrote that awful awful Reno being some kinda hermaphrodite random smutfilled rudereno fic that augh augh augh If so, I don't think I'm surprised at that "Oh so you actually think someone else can write other than you." response. I hear she's really really elitist andstuckup. >>"

I never touched that fic ... I remember when she wrote it though. It was after I kind of bowed out of fandom. And yeah, she's so elitist and stuck-up in a bad way. I mean, I know I'm a bitch at times but seriously if anyone takes the time to talk to me I'm a nice person who doesn't give this stuff much thought offline. You bring out my evil side too often, though. I think you want to do it, showing me little rants here and there. Instigating and then I look bad for showing up and being caught at the scene of the crime so to speak.

She tore into a friend of mine -- who was a friend of hers at the time -- over said friend suffering from depression. Some friend, yanno. x_x

Evil's fun, though!

But dude, I remember being kinda intimidated by you too, way back when uh... I don't even remember any more, but yeah! Brittney too! She used to scare me a lot. >>" But then apparently people are intimidated by ME and I'm like, a total pushover, and when they tell me that I'm like huh!? Why!?

I just think this whole thing is/was funny. *dies*

Yes, it is.

It's funny because Brittney was intimidated by me years ago. We're talking way back in 2003 when I writing HojoxVincent. She became friends with Rene' -- who I unfortunately never hear from anymore these days -- who was a really good friend of mine and Rene' was all, 'Talk to her, she's not scary.' And finally she did and I think she was still scared of me up until a point. I have no idea where this comes from though. People meet me in person and they're all, 'You're a lot more talkative' or 'I wasn't expecting to see you smile' or something of the sort. Whereas Crystal who's pretty sociable online is kind of shy in person.

Indeed. Though, seriously a part of me wishes it would go away in general. I probably made a lot of enemies unintentionally over the course of about 48 hours back in late December of 2005.

In retrospect I'm sometimes all, 'WTF was I doing?' It's funny though, because some of the people I was probably bashing are now friends of mine. I have friends who I can't stand their fandom or pairing or writing style, but that doesn't change the fact that we can still be friends outside of that because it's a stupid hobby to occupy my online time which is becoming less and less these days.

You're just so SCARY!

Yeah ... real scary. Yanno, the type of scary that would never prompt someone to drag me down onto a bed during the first two minutes after having met me because I'd eat their soul.

You can eat my soul anytime you like, baby.

And I'd say it was less than two minutes. Don't underestimate me! XD

Yeah, probably. I remember it was, '::grab.:: I have no idea who you are but you're hot.' It still makes me laugh. That seems to be how I get greeted in general by the Crack Crew these days. o_O

Randy grabbed me and dragged me into the suite at AUSA the moment I arrived.

8. OMG QUOTE FOR TRUTH

and two of the three mods are friends of mine.

that's comforting.

so much for anonymity in this place. glad I haven't posted anything here. I'd hate to think now the mods can't be trusted to maintain that anonymity.

What? Trust me, we never said a word. It's still anonymous as far as I know. Just because we're friends doesn't mean that we're going to break trust with all the submitters here--and besides, the submissions post is anonymous anyway; how would we know who did it?

Whoa, wait! Just because she's friends with them doesn't mean that they're going to tell her anything. Trust me when we say that we're dedicated to being as anonymous as we possibly can. Besides which, we ask that the secrets be posted via anonymous comments, therefore we can't really match secret with person as long as you don't use a website that has your name on it!

14. *dies* I LOVE IT!

6. YES.

#6: Me too.

I heard a lot of positive reviews for PoTC. And I... I've never been so bored.

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[Picture is Georg Prime from the videogame series "Suikoden". He is a man with light skin, long black hair, golden? eyes and wearing dark warrior-like clothing. He has his left eye covered by a black plate or fabric of sorts, which seems to be wrapped around his head. There is a golden center piece on his forehead and over the thing covering his eye. He looks serious.]

I've had dreams about talking to this man.

warning for fictional characters suffering violence and past sexual abuse

[Picture is a box of heart-shaped chocolates, or possibly another sort of sugary confection. They are all piled up inside a white cardboard heart-shaped box.]

I'll offer you CANDY if you please shut up about your Mary Sue who no one cares for and who's a BIG BREASTED VAMPIRE SLUT NOBODY SUPER SAIYAN PRINCESS FAIRY SHITBAG who my character wouldn't mind stabbing.

...And it's sad that you'll be glad if she IS stabbed because then you can woe about how cruel the world is and how she's so misunderstood.

Wait, was this your Mary Sue or your genderless uke boy who was RAPED!!11! ...I really can't tell the difference.

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Transcripts!

Secret 1 - Suikoden (videogame series), Georg Prime (character)

Secret 2 - Roleplaying (warning for fictional characters suffering violence and past sexual abuse)