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fandomsecrets2009-03-26 04:58 pm
case) wrote in fandomsecrets2009-03-26 04:58 pm
[ SECRET POST #811 ]
⌈ Secret Post #811 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
101.
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[Paddy McGuinness & Keith Lemon and Robert Webb - Let's Dance for Comic Relief]
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107.
[Bonnie Hunt, Jeffery Dean Morgan]
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108.
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109.
[Star Wars]
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110.
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111.
[Superjail]
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112. [repeat]
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113.
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114.
[Open Season]
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115.
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116.
[Dr Who]
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117.
[Runaways]
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118.
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119.
[Death Note / Detroit Metal City]
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[Supernatural]
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[Repo]
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122.
[The Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time & Marjora's Mask]
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123.
[Neil Patrick Harris, HIMYM]
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124.
[Legend of the Seeker]
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125.
[Nightmare of Nunally]
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127.
[Dr Tran/Tropic Thunder]
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128.
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129.
[Mei-chan no Shitsuji]
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131.
[Pokemon Mystery Dungeon 2]
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[Watchmen]
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134.
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135.
[House MD]
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136.
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137.
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138. [repeat]
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139.
[Bleach]
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140.
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141.
[Houkago Play]
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142.
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143.
[Revy, Black Lagoon]
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144.
[Blue Collar Comedy Tour]
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145.
[They Might Be Giants]
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148.
[Bleach]
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[Skins]
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[Scooter, Rizzo, Muppets]
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154.
[Kristen Stewart & Lady GaGa]
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[Smallville]
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156.
[wonderfalls/pushing daisies]
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157.
[Edyta Sliwinska]
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[Tales of Symphonia]
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Notes:
Secrets Left to Post: 03 pages, 075 secrets from Secret Submission Post #116.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 1 - broken links ], [ 1 2 3 - not!secrets ], [ 1 2 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 1 2 - repeat ], [ 1 - take it to comments ], [ 1 - personal attack ], [ 1 - posted twice ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.
#154
(Anonymous) 2009-03-27 12:03 am (UTC)(link)On the one hand, I want to scold you for being so caught up on something that is really rather petty and, ultimately, unimportant. As more or less everyone else who has bothered to comment on this secret has noted, Lady GaGa's body is not exactly something to scoff at. Many would be ravenously envious of her body, and appearance isn't even an important thing to worry about.
On the other hand, this secret may very well have been written by me. I gained a lot of weight towards the end of my single digit years, going from a bean pole at seven to a pudgy, short kid at eight or nine. This desperately bothered me for years, until the tail end of my fourteenth year. I tried a million different things, and for some reason or another I never got into any better shape at all. Finally, when I was fifteen, I reduced my total food consumption and started exercising regularly. I lost something like twenty pounds in two months, and I was thrilled with it - but it still didn't seem like enough. My weight has been mostly stagnant since then (about a year ago) and it's mind-bogglingly frustrating. I still have extra fat on my arms, thighs, stomach, butt, and head and whenever I think of how I look I just get disgusted with myself - now even more so than before. I have large bunches of muscles all through my legs, a large butt (as in that picture of Lady GaGa, but unseemly), and no breasts at all (seriously - the only reason I bustline even approaches thirty-one inches is because I have large ribs). I don't have the body to be skinny, and I don't have the body to be curvy, and whenever I see myself in a mirror all I can think is that I'm ugly and gross and below average in a way that can never be fixed. That, when added to my general entire lack of self-esteem in anything at all, makes me feel miserable, and whenever I do get into one of my bimonthly periods of self-loathing, remembering how ugly and irreparable my body is just makes it all seem so much worse.
So, I understand how frustrating it is to work at achieving a certain standard for months on end and then ending up with something that you regard as not just different, but entirely inferior and not at all what you wanted, but I don't think you (or I, or anyone) should worry about it as much as you (or I, or anyone) do(es).