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I haven't gotten a good night's sleep at all this week and tomorrow I have to get up early to run some errands and I'm really not looking forward to it. My period seems like it's finally gotten back to normal (who knew vitamin deficiencies could fuck it up?) but I'm cramping and feel blah. :( I've luckily never had really bad cramps (the worst they've ever been I'd consider maybe a 6 out of 10) and I know some people have them so bad they pass out from the pain so I really shouldn't be whining. I probably should try to go to bed early so I can at least get some rest and feel somewhat better tomorrow but I don't feel like it.

Anyone wanna complain about anything?

my parents have been renting a condo on sanibel island in florida since the 90s and yes, what happened to sanibel is tragic and very difficult for the islanders and their lives but I want to just shake my mother and scream YOU ARE NOT AN ISLANDER YOU DO NOT LIVE THERE AND YOU WILL NOT HAVE TO PAY FOR THIS OR SUFFER BEYOND NOT BEING ABLE TO VACATION THERE FOR THE NEXT FEW YEARS. I'm just so sick of hearing about the dead birds and the insurance claims and the COMMUNITY IN TATTERS and she will not shut up about it all and it's driving me batty. we live three states away, inland, and the storm did not touch us and yet she is comparing it to the funerals we just went to in terms of sorrow for her.

on my period too anon, and on week four of this temp job. looking for work sucks ass and the two people I report to are going to be on leave from Monday for a week. I’m just hoping something more permanent (or they extend my contract) comes along before I finish

I miss my ex. Not all the time, but it's been ten years, so I feel like it should be none of the time. I haven't spoken to them, because that's what they wanted. But I still daydream about asking them a simple question about something I remember them being an expert on, and getting a simple reply. Or an impersonal text on my birthday saying "HBD". And I would say "thanks". And that would be it. I know there's no chance of starting over. And I can go for weeks without thinking of them, but sometimes I hear their old favorite song on the radio or I see someone wearing the same color jacket as the one I used to "borrow" all the time, and I feel like I'll never be truly happy. Like something will always be missing.

Same story, anon. Commiserations and sad fistbump. It feels a bit less lonely now, though.

I wish I could wake up and fall back asleep without having to get up and pee. >:(

Oh thiiiis. There my body even gets all this water

Not so much a vent as a sad thought or two.

Mourning friendships that had to end is hard. I already don't have a lot of friends and I have a hard time making new connections/friends, even on socials or fandom spaces. But I understand it's better to let the friendship go.

I hate how my sister turns to me for validation but will try to invalidate my experiences because lord knows the world will end if things don't absolutely center on her and her worldview.
She spoke of not having memories or remembering things differently of events or situations relating to our brother. I felt a sense of guilt from her and she began saying she probably was given so much (my parents definitely put her in the parentification role, especially our mom) she didn't have room to have a real childhood. There were things I would talk about and she doesn't remember.
I told my sister that there are events, people and situations in which she has vivid recollections of that I feel either just the vaguest....memories/flashes of images or I don't have any context at all to what she's talking about.
Felt like she got defensive and was saying "well I was always a nosy kid, I knew too much, picked up on information because I was a perceptive kid."
Didn't get upset with her but I did reply to her that no, really, it's not just about the adults' inter-personal lives or the gossip that I don't remember, literal events we even have pictures or video recordings of, a lot of them can't remember.
Told her it's why my best friend (who my sister knows well) and I realized perhaps that's why we are still into stuff that people deem kiddy or immature (we're Disney nerds, he loves Pokemon, I love Hello Kitty). We went through a lot and were forced to grow up too soon.
Wasn't until I told her that that's why my best friend and I just wholly embrace the things that make us happy, don't care what people think or say. They didn't have my childhood, they don't know why I love the things I do. She took a step back and stopped trying to make it seem like her shitty childhood was the only shitty childhood.

I wish my sister would leave me alone though. I don't like trauma bonding, especially not with her.

For cramps, and granted, I hear you on how bad they could be, I know people who get them far worse than I do -- I find that a heating pad works wonders. Be it an electrical one or a sock filled with rice you microwaved (check it out if you don't have an electric one), but you lay down with that thing over your womb and WOW. So much better. I find stretching the muscle groups on the area also helps, but I don't know how well that would work for you. Good luck

ayrt

Thanks for the advice! Last night wasn't too bad, I was just in a whiny mood, and luckily they're gone today. I will definitely try a heating pad the next time they get bad, though! :)

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