I totally get the morbid curiosity. I am super critical to my own looks, sometimes I wonder if watching videos of plastic surgeons making guesses to what potential cosmetic procedures celebrities have gone under is a way for me to vicariously experience something I really want to do (but honestly never seriously considered, which I think is good for me, but NGL as I get older and the ways pop culture's been going in recent years...it's hard not to feel like I hyperfocus on not just my physical features but others too).

I think it's a good idea for you to stay away from that space OP <3