I don't think it was meant to be sexy either! Berserk was the first manga that had me crying during such a painful scene (USUALLY I JUST GO OVER SUCH STUFF WITHOUT A SECOND LOOK) but even in the anime, by the last episode I was just in tears AND THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE.

Poor Caska. ;_; Then again, I mourned the loss of the first BotH so. D: WOE.