While I was reading this I thought of a certain friend I had with someone in my old fandom except our story went differently. I was on the other side, feeling like she abandoned me. It was bad enough that I was trying desperately to still like the fandom we shared, only to find later on that she was still updating her journal but filtering me through every single one (and till this day, year after I completely abandoned my old account she's still filtering me from her new posts. Actually, I don't even see some of the other entries that originally were viewable by me - wth? whatever-) I don't even know what prompted this sudden disconnection. I don't recall any arguments or conflicts. So I confess that while reading this secret I was half-hoping you were that friend trying to find me in the new fandom that's giving me joy, but sorry our stories don't match. :( I'm still happily in my new fandom under a new name and she's still posting her fanfiction daily and posting in her personal journal (which filters me out of it.)
I cannot think of emailing her after all this time. The idea just seems so awkward so kudos to you for trying it. I don't think I could have handled rejection from someone I held such high opinion to.
In the end I decided not to let her actions bother me too much. As others have already stated, people change. Also, sometimes a friendship was meant to happen and meant to end. Maybe you were meant to learn something with this friend, and after you learned this life lesson then you are meant to move on. I am glad that the last time this fandom friend and I spoke we were both on good terms with each other and both loved each other as sisters. I would rather the memory of that friendship not be stained by fights or drama. I learned a lot from her, and I celebrate that and don't think too much on the awkwardness of how she walled me out of her life. I understand how you feel, and it sucks how things turned out for you, but maybe this friendship was best to end where it did, on a positive note. We may pine for those happy days, but things change and maybe this isn't meant to be. I hope you enjoy your new fandom. :)
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I cannot think of emailing her after all this time. The idea just seems so awkward so kudos to you for trying it. I don't think I could have handled rejection from someone I held such high opinion to.
In the end I decided not to let her actions bother me too much. As others have already stated, people change. Also, sometimes a friendship was meant to happen and meant to end. Maybe you were meant to learn something with this friend, and after you learned this life lesson then you are meant to move on. I am glad that the last time this fandom friend and I spoke we were both on good terms with each other and both loved each other as sisters. I would rather the memory of that friendship not be stained by fights or drama. I learned a lot from her, and I celebrate that and don't think too much on the awkwardness of how she walled me out of her life. I understand how you feel, and it sucks how things turned out for you, but maybe this friendship was best to end where it did, on a positive note. We may pine for those happy days, but things change and maybe this isn't meant to be. I hope you enjoy your new fandom. :)