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fandomsecrets2007-06-09 05:19 pm
grayout.livejournal.com) wrote in fandomsecrets2007-06-09 05:19 pm
[ SECRET POST #155 ]
⌈ Secret Post #155 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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Secrets Left to Post: 05 pages, 114 secrets from Secret Submission Post #023.
Secrets Not Posted: 0 broken links, 0 not!secrets, 0 not!fandom.
Next Secret Post: Tomorrow, Sunday, June 10th, 2007.
Current Secret Submission Post: Here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.
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I don't know if you've read my various other little bits of stuff I've posted on here, but you are the last of the last. ^^;
Everyone... *frowns, thinks* I used to write a very large, very popular Yu-Gi-Oh fanfic. I really enjoyed it, it was hugely loved. I loved writing it, and even to this day, I had people asking me to repost it since it got taken down from FF.net.
So people started to enjoy the silly little RP-story Jaded and I posted. I enjoyed writing it, and I just... had fun. We goofed off with story, we played around with characters, we just... were. We didn't care what others thought. It was nice, since I write professionally, to basically... not care at all.
Sometime after Behind Light (LF's sequel), I started to write (with a different co-author) a very character-canon piece that got some good reviews. People liked it, said they liked the change of having the very serious less OOC characters. I was happy that people liked our more IC story. My world was happy.
Then suddenly, I find out that... I'm hated for some reason. I mean, once this whole thing on Fandom secrets started? People actually started coming to my PERSONAL LJ and trolling. Leaving me incredibly hateful messages that even some other 'don't like my fic' people said was too much. People could only focus on the one fic they didn't like and decided, instantly, I was a terrible writer with no redeeming qualities. And it was... painful. I don't think people think about how cruel they can be, even when it is just text on a page.
I came here to try and defend myself and explain. LF/BL were just plain ol' fun. I never meant it to be serious, I never forced anyone to read it. I had another fic that was more IC. I said "Here, go read this and see that I do write ICly and with a more canon plot." People just told me I was 'desperate' and 'name dropping' and some other painfully cruel statements... all because I wanted to defend myself.
I never asked anyone to read my fics. If I find a fic I don't like, I just stop reading it. I smile when I see they are still posting, but mostly ignore their posts. I don't go out and post cruel words/images/snarks about them. I don't go out of my way to write parodies and other such things. It hurt me, deep inside, to know people hated me (sometimes) and my ONE fanfiction so much as to be so... downright mean.
I hope this is an explanation. I didn't mean for it to be this long. If you like how I write, and are looking for something more ICly, please try out "Synergy". It's in my big fanfic post at the top of my LJ. You don't have to read it, and please understand I'm not name dropping or begging. You said you liked my stuff but stopped, I figured maybe you would want to try something else? Please feel free to respond to this.
Sorry for the length! XD Kudos if you even made it this far!
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I honestly think it's pretty nasty that someone could possibly hate you because of what you write. That's as petty as say... I dunno, hating someone because they design shoes you dislike, even though they liked the shoes the shoes were based off. A less than perfect analogy, but hey, I'm not a writer.
And I'll be sure to check out Synergy, at the very least. :3