YES. I relate so much to everything you just wrote. I like things that are fucked up beyond belief. And I really hate what they did to Ciel in the anime versus the manga. the anime made him way too kind and the relationship between Seb and Ciel into some kind of shounen ai love story. It ruined the dynamic for me almost completely.

Loveless is interesting, but the fandom sucks. I only read it for the side characters at the moment, but the main relationship is pretty effed up in the manga. It's actually a Josei series so it's meant for adults, but most of the fandom is really young and only read it for the shounen ai which is a shame.

Alois/Hannah is such an interesting dynamic. I love it so much. I really don't get the amount of hate she gets.