I could have made this secret. <3 I can completely understand just how much this song can help you deal with life, and why you don't outright tell people why this song helps you so much. I don't really consider Good Charlotte a good band, but I enjoyed that album a lot. "Hold On" in particular spoke volumes to me when I was in high school. Even now when I'm feeling down I blast this song on and cry a bit, and it makes me feel better. It reminds me that I'm not alone with the way I feel about life and there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I don't talk to any of my friends about it (RL and fandom) because they all have verbally expressed strong disliking for GC and their music. I don't want to preach this album or this song on them. I don't want to make them feel bad for me just to get my opinion across to them. So I don't tell them. Also, we make a lot of jokes about "LOL Emo much?" with certain situations and people (EX. A RL friend was writing a lot of stuff down on FB because she and her boyfriend were fighting and I told a fandom friend about it and she was like, "LOL What an Ebony" [as in Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way]), and if I told any of my friends that I still get urges to cut myself when I'm in extremely high stress situations, they might start cracking jokes, especially if I tell them that listening to GC helps me deal and not cut myself. They would be like, "LOL you're such a hypocrite, emo. Go cut yourself to some GC and Linkin Park." And to them, it's like joking about it makes the pill easier to swallow, but to me, joking about it shows a lack of respect or understanding and it just triggers the need to cut myself even more. I've told a few of them about how I used to cut myself but none of them really understand why I cut myself and I get this feeling that they feel awkward talking to me about it in a serious manner so I don't really talk to them about it anymore.
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I don't really consider Good Charlotte a good band, but I enjoyed that album a lot. "Hold On" in particular spoke volumes to me when I was in high school. Even now when I'm feeling down I blast this song on and cry a bit, and it makes me feel better. It reminds me that I'm not alone with the way I feel about life and there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I don't talk to any of my friends about it (RL and fandom) because they all have verbally expressed strong disliking for GC and their music. I don't want to preach this album or this song on them. I don't want to make them feel bad for me just to get my opinion across to them. So I don't tell them. Also, we make a lot of jokes about "LOL Emo much?" with certain situations and people (EX. A RL friend was writing a lot of stuff down on FB because she and her boyfriend were fighting and I told a fandom friend about it and she was like, "LOL What an Ebony" [as in Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way]), and if I told any of my friends that I still get urges to cut myself when I'm in extremely high stress situations, they might start cracking jokes, especially if I tell them that listening to GC helps me deal and not cut myself. They would be like, "LOL you're such a hypocrite, emo. Go cut yourself to some GC and Linkin Park." And to them, it's like joking about it makes the pill easier to swallow, but to me, joking about it shows a lack of respect or understanding and it just triggers the need to cut myself even more. I've told a few of them about how I used to cut myself but none of them really understand why I cut myself and I get this feeling that they feel awkward talking to me about it in a serious manner so I don't really talk to them about it anymore.