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fandomsecrets2011-12-24 03:24 pm
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[ SECRET POST #1817 ]
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Secrets Left to Post: 07 pages, 165 secrets from Secret Submission Post #260.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 1 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 - too big ], [ 0 - repeats ]
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(Anonymous) 2011-12-24 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)I still can't remember much of the first month after he was killed. I remember being terrified of forgetting his voice, his smell. I kept a voice mail he sent asking me to buy him ice cream at the store, and even placed one of his shirts in a plastic sealed bag.
The depth of my depression was frightening. I was rather...horrid to the people that cared about me. I still feel terrible as to how I trated others, though they've all forgiven me for some reason.
I think, OP that you've got it a bit wrong here. See, Myers makes depression, loss, and treating others(anyone that isn't edward/cullens) as if they are completely insignificant romantic. Bella falling into months of "blank pages" is seen as beautiful. He suicidal-idealation is seen as somehow heroic and a testament to her bond with Edward, it's seen as something that's okay.
That's where all these secrets, I think, come from. From people being very angry with Myers for making suicide, depression and the exclusion of everyone except her "one true love" something to almost aspire to.
Was what went through 'normal' yes and no. Everyone responds to sudden and violent loss differently. What I went through was amazingly difficult. However, I found help and I was able to finally function, then really "live."
However, I will never tell anyone that what i went though was a "beautiful testament" to my love for him. I would never stand to the side and think "how romantic" or tell adolecents that if they don't feel depression of that density something is wrong with them. Myers is doing this however, and that is where the hate and anger comes from.
Frankly, while I don't like it when people degrade others for falling into depression, I will certainly join in their disbelief and anger for making it something that is romantic and indicated as the only reaction for "real love."
(please excuse SPAG mistakes, bit emotional here and can't edit properly on this phone)
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(Anonymous) 2011-12-24 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)And apperently HTML fail. Dang I miss preview.
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(Anonymous) 2011-12-24 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)Everything in your comment is spot-on and exactly what I've been trying to articulate without quite managing to.
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(Anonymous) 2011-12-25 10:23 am (UTC)(link)no subject
but this comment is eloquent and perfect and says everything I wanted to say (I've been suicidally depressed, though it wasn't tied to anything like what you went through) only much better than I could have. ♥
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(Anonymous) 2011-12-25 10:24 am (UTC)(link)no subject