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F!S Anon Meme (the Seventh, and now on DW!)

Secrets, rants, opinions, anything you want to say about your fandom or a fandom or fandom in general, do it here! Anonymously, of course. Get it all off your chest.

Some ground rules:
1. Going anon is encouraged but not absolutely required (for those who struggle with captchas and stuff).
2. No autoplaying/autolooping embeds, or embeds that cover/stretch the screen.
3. No dropping personal info or IRL contact info, etc.

That's about it, though!

I'll be linking some general/general-fandom threads I see so people don't repost new threads with the same stuff.

Unpopular Ships
Obligatory Masturbation Thread
Fandoms you wish existed
How old are you?
What series have you always meant to watch/read/play/etc. but have never?
Time and location
Female-centric works
How do you feel about Tumblr?
Pet thread
Guilty pleasure thread
Favorite old shows
First fandom?

Comments

Re: Boobs or penis?

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt

I'm pretty sure my "I'm not a girl I'm a boy" started because of strict gender role expectations in my culture and me saying 'fuck that' to it. Now, I'm still trying to figure out whether I'd be more comfortable as a guy or I'm just a girl who doesn't like traditional girl things.

My close friends think I'm good the way I am. They'll support me if I'm a guy but they prefer me being a girl. Also, my parents are starting to talk about marriage and kids/grandkids and I'm not very enthusiastic about this prospect at all. My culture does not approve of gays and transgendered people - they are usually disowned - so I can't bring it up with my family.

I rarely have dreams where I am me as I am right now. I'm usually gender neutral or I'm a guy. one night I dreamed I was a guy and I was able to fondle myself and wank off. I almost cried when I woke up and realized it wasn't real.

Sorry for the tl;dr and tmi :(

Re: Boobs or penis?

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt
I don't mind tmi or tl;dr, really!
But damn, anon I feel for you. It sounds like you are going through exactly the same as me. :( But you've got added on the cultural disapproval(well, I'm from USA so it's not the best but I wouldn't get disowned.)
I have been getting pressure for getting married or having kids too, or even getting a boyfriend. I think one of the main reasons why I have not actively looked for a boyfriend even though I do find myself attracted to men, is that the idea of having sex AS a female is just so disturbing to me. But at the same time I don't actively hate being female, just the same way as you, I don't follow gender norms at all.

Sometimes I am so glad I don't have/remember my dreams because things like that would just depress me so badly.
I wish there was some way this could easily be solved. It's so confusing.

Re: Boobs or penis?

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt

I had a boyfriend. Feeling his cock grind against my ass was hot as hell but I was never comfortable enough with him to orgasm. Kissing was wet for both of us and nothing else. I can imagine hold hands with a girl and being physical with her and having a life with her but I don't know if it's fantasy or reality. And it's not like I can tell my family I'm dating a girl and I'm getting down and dirty with her just to 'experiment'. Dating is very much 'srs bns' - think pre-marriage negotiations - with no premaritial sex allowed and god forbid if I actually hitch up with her. D/s turns me on like nothing else I've seen. Trying to explain the dynamics of bdsm with my family will be a nightmare.

Man, I'm messed up. Heh.

Re: Boobs or penis?

[(Anonymous)]

Augh bdsm, my downfall! I love it so much. The idea of pegging is interesting, but really not at the same time as I wouldn't be able to feel it, you know?
My one boyfriend(if you could call two weekends a relationship) wasn't any fun, I mostly enjoyed the grinding. But he didn't enjoy the grinding at all. Hmm.

Kissing him was pretty much disgusting, but maybe he was just a crap kisser(kinda tasted gross, too). I even got the guts to ask for anal but he refused, ha! Damn.
Wow I can't believe how much I am sharing right now...

Ah, so are you more attracted to females? That is interesting. I'm rather attracted to females but I just wouldn't want to do anything as a fellow female. Fuck I don't know, my brain is so fucked up.

I think if you can imagine in detail a life with another female, it is probably rather serious. I have no idea what kind of advice to say in regards to dealing with family and their expectations. It must be incredibly difficult. Do they absolutely expect you to marry?

Re: Boobs or penis?

[(Anonymous)]

Same! I read a really hot pegging fic a few days ago but it's not the same.

I like looking at nice racks and perky tits and curvy butts as much as I like looking at pecs and penises. I can imagine myself with a girl or a guy equally well, and I can imagine being in a threesome/poly relationship. No open relationships though. I mean, I imagine myself with a person instead of a set gender, if that makes any sense. I don't have anything against having sex as a girl but when I think of myself in formal clothing it's always men's clothing.

I really don't know. I should see a shrink and s/he will have a field day.

Hahahaha yes I'm absolutely expected to marry. I'm absolutely expected to have at least one son. When they ask about boyfriends I just say I haven't found one yet. I expect things to heat up in a few years - it will be harder to get pregnant, harder to find free guys, you have to get married soon, etc.