[ SECRET POST #2059 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2059 ⌋

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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry if FS is getting tired of these kinds of posts, but I really need an anonymous outlet right now. I don't even care if anyone reads this, but if I keep it bottled up for much longer, I'm going to fucking crack.

I've struggled with suicide on and off for the past decade or so. I've made two attempts in the past, and I honestly thought I was beyond that by now. I was mistaken.

I've spent the past two days thinking of nothing but killing myself. I have the means to do it, and the difference is that this time, I have the means to succeed. I live by myself, I have no local friends, I don't know my neighbours, I'm virtually a shut-in, and my family can go for a few weeks without contacting me. I could swallow 100 pills right now and I assure you no one would find my body until I started rotting.

Then I realized that not only would it take everyone a while to find my body, but that would mean that my dog, my only companion, would starve to death in my absense. If I kill myself, I'll be dooming him. Realizing that, I'm overcome with the most powerful sense of grief I've ever felt in my life. Words can't describe how terrible I feel right now. How do you deal with this? How do you fucking live with this?

I'm not going to kill myself tonight because I love this dog so much, I can't do that to him. But I am in so much god damn pain right now I don't know what to do.

[(Anonymous)]

you could probably fill the bathtub with water and set out a few buckets of dog chow and he would be fine for a while (if he runs out of food, I imagine he could start eating your body)

also, don't kill yourself. I'm just saying you COULD and your dog would probably last a while. I'm sure he would miss you though.

[(Anonymous)]

lmao, stop helping

[(Anonymous)]

From a purely logical point of view, if you care about your dog's survival, this is not an advisable route to take. If you vomit, or if your dog consumes part of your body, it is possible that he could consume the drugs you ingested, which would likely be dangerous or deadly to him as well.

[(Anonymous)]

TERRIBLE idea

the dog might not know how to pace himself when presented with that much food and might eat too much

the dog might, you know, feel bad about you dying (because dogs are the kind of creatures that do feel bad about those sorts of things befalling their human companions, believe it or not) and decide to stop eating or get depressed himself too

honestly, OP, if I were you, I would focus on being there for my dog, and let that buoy me for as long as it takes to find professional help

dogs are awesome

[agentcthulhu]

Laughing always helped me feel better when I was down. Even if it was just a couple of minutes of ROFL, it was better than thinking about negative thoughts. Do you have activities that you enjoy doing, or silly books/videos/websites you can use as a distraction? Can you go out and play with your dog? Do you have future events you're looking forward to attending? Are there any PURE AWESOME things in the world that remind you it's worth it to hang on a little longer?

*hug*

[biohazardgirl]

*hug* I'm glad you decided not to die today, anon. I hope life gets better for you.

[(Anonymous)]

My dog died recently, and it was the single most painful experience of my life. I'm begging you, please do not make your dog go through the same pain. I firmly believe that dogs are capable of missing their humans, and your dog would miss you terribly. Your dog depends on you for more than survival; he depends on you for love and affection as well. When you adopt a dog, you make an agreement: you will provide your dog with food and water and a warm, safe home, and your dog will provide you with all the unconditional love he has in him. Don't back out of your end of the bargain.

Give your dog a big hug. See how much he adores you. Isn't he reason enough to get through one more shitty day?

Is there any chance you could talk to someone you know? A friend or family member who would pick up the phone?

If not:

http://suicidehotlines.com

[unicornherds]

That is honestly a big reason I got a dog. I wanted something that I would be responsible for and a kind of last resort reason not to try suicide again. And not only is she dependent on me and I just would feel awful leaving her, but she's good for when I need a hug or feel lonely but don't really want to be around people. Dogs are awesome.

I wish I had more advice or comfort, but the only thing I can say is I know exactly what you are going through and you are not alone in this struggle. I could have written this exact post myself. If you ever want to chat or rant or vent feel free to PM me.