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fandomsecrets2012-09-20 07:02 pm
case) wrote in fandomsecrets2012-09-20 07:02 pm
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Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2012-09-21 05:16 am (UTC)(link)It's easy to compare yourself against other people in your position or against what you know. But take a step back sometimes, look at yourself against everyone else in different lives. I wouldn't say one is necessarily ideal compared to others, it's more like... different classes in an RPG. So you spent a number of years dumping stat points in a melee class, and someone else spent those years dumping them into magic. There's no reason you couldn't pick up the basics of magic either, or that they couldn't pick up the basics of fighting, and the earlier on you are in a the game the less penalties you have for crossing classes, since a level 2 fighter level 1 wizard wouldn't be much behind a level 3 wizard in terms of what he can take on. But a level 15 fighter 5 wizard vesus a level 20 wizard, well, there's a LOT more difference between the classes there.
The way that'd compare to your situation is basically that from the sound of it you're not really at the epic level character stage, but you're on your way there. Either way, whatever you do, so long as you're pushing yourself (which sounds like something you want to do), you're gaining experience. Sometimes a character with different types of skills can handle way more than a person who's only ever specialized in one thing. Sometimes you need someone who's only ever specialized in one thing to handle a tricky situation. It's a big world. There are tons of quests out there for people of every type. The world isn't a zero-sum game where only one type of hero can win at the end. You know that, you've been through a lot of situations, and I think you know where to find more.
Whatever you decide to do, always think through why you want to do it, and then ask yourself if there are any other ways to do that. 'You want to be in the military', well, why? 'You want to help people', how will being in the military do that? 'You want to achieve these goals of self-improvement', what will that mean for your own position at the end of it all?
Don't stop learning. There aren't any level caps in the real world, and that's part of the fun.
OP
(Anonymous) 2012-09-21 05:59 am (UTC)(link)For a long time, and I suppose now to some extent, I just figured I'd end up dead. Wouldn't have to worry about the "what next", and how much better can I get to make things the best. I have a certain baseline, added on with a few learned skills, and by the time I did what I could with what I had, it would just end.
But you're absolutely right. I do have to keep on learning, since like you said, there is no cap. This may sound kind of naive of me to say it, but it's not like death's a sure thing and I should just be content with having a set amount of skills. I can always learn more and help better the situation while I'm in it.
How funny.
I had been feeling kind of alone, and wishing I could find someone to connect to and give me some hope.
Thank you for showing me that I had it all along. It was there, but I just didn't quite know where to find it. Sometimes it's hard to understand your own potential with your own eyes.
You are a wonderful person. Thank you.
Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2012-09-21 06:20 am (UTC)(link)Looking at your other comments, having saftey and security, it can be a pretty weird thing, right? To have everything within your reach. I don't think it's creature comforts that are bad or anything, though, as much as how little a ton of people are aware that they're not very far they could be from losing all of that. As much things as you do have control of, there're will always be stuff that's bigger than you are.
Some people ignore that, some people spend all the time preparing for when things will go bad, but... there is a middle line. It's possible to be aware things could go south, but then because you're aware of that, all the more know how valuable what you have is now.
I'd say, if you have enough to take care of yourself and whatever's important to you (which is something that you're going to have to think about, too), then you're good. I hope you're good! Could things be better? Things could always be better, but then they could always be worse. And you have the benefit of knowing that even when things do get worse, they don't have to stay that way.
Honestly, I'm nothing special. You're the one that's been through stuff and that's working on getting better. I think you've probably figured from the other comments that you're not alone in the situation you're in. You, and everyone else that's working hard, keep going. Chances are neither you nor the world you live in are done with each other yet.