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⌈ Secret Post #2138 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Cabin in the Woods]

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[Hanna Is Not A Boy's Name]

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03.

[Vampire Diaries]

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[009 RE:CYBORG]

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07. [SPOILERS for Elementary]

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08. [SPOILERS for Supernatural]

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09. [SPOILERS for Journey Into Mystery 2011/Young Avengers 2012]

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10. [SPOILERS for Skyfall]

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[ -----TRIGGERY SECRETS AHEAD ----- ]

11. [WARNING for abuse]

[Chris Brown / Jaejoong (JYJ)]

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12. [WARNING for incest]

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13. [WARNING for abuse]

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14. [WARNING for eating disorders]

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15. [WARNING for suicide]

[Edna and Harvey: Harvey's New Eyes]

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I'm like this except no immune disease and zero dates (and I don't have much experience with psychologist or doctors either... uh)

But everything else?

I know exactly what you mean. Right through the wanting to be happy but not wanting to be used and not feeling human and ugh, yeah.

I've gotten a little better with time, but I have no idea what to tell you.

Having an emotional support network works wonder, but it's kind of a vicious circle if you want friends but don't want them

I know this isn't going to be what you want to hear -I sure hated hearing it when I was younger-, but barring something neurological or nutritional or such that is creating the chemical deficiencies or mix-ups or whatever in you, for which you should definitely try to get professional help, if it's the case, the help you need can only come from you.

Which sounds like bullshit new era thinking, but a lot of it has to be you creating strength and courage from within when there is none, and then use that to find help and guidance. Which, um, I guess you did by posting here. I, uh, sorry.

I really don't mean to sound patronizing. :(

The sites I've heard seem to be focused on suicide prevention, but you could try to ask them for some direction, if they can't help you themselves:

http://www.tumblr.com/docs/en/counseling_prevention_resources

Sometimes having conversations with yourself, or writing down your thoughts and trying to solve them might help. Try to get to the bottom of everything. "why do I feel this way?" "why do I fear this?" "what previous things have I seen or experience that make me think that this situation will end up like this? Is it really true?" "what is the worst case scenario?" and so on

I have to admit that my confidence comes and goes, but when it comes, it is when I somehow convince myself that the worst case scenario is, for example, public humiliation, and hey, at least that won't get me killed (where I live O__O), so who cares! other people have messed up in public too, or in private, or with people they were trying to impress in any specific scenario, and so on

I'm sorry I'm rambling. This is something I don't really know how to put into words very well.

Just, know that it's not just you, okay? c: I swear you're not a weirdo and that there's a bunch of us social misfits hanging out, unseen, and kinda just flailing on the inside, desperate to waltz through human life without stepping on too many toes.

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