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⌈ Secret Post #2201 ⌋

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[Monty Python]


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[Umineko no Naku Koro Ni]


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09. [SPOILERS for Arkham City]



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13. [WARNING for rape]

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Comments

TW: self harm

[(Anonymous)]

It scares me how casually I think of suicide. I don't actually want to go through with it, but my life really kind of sucks right now and I can't see it getting any better; not a day goes by that I don't think "Fuck this I'd rather kill myself" with some degree of seriousness. The crux of the problem is my physical health, so I don't think talking to anyone (in the professional sense) would help--at the end of the day I'll still be sick, so what's the point? I don't intend to act on those feelings at all, I just needed to get it off my chest.

Re: TW: self harm

[(Anonymous)]

If it's any consolation, thinking "I'd rather kill myself" is a bad thought, yes, and one that a lot of people have during bad times. As someone who has crossed the line quite thoroughly, though, I can tell you there's a line between "I'd rather kill myself" and "I could walk into traffic and IT WOULD BE AWESOME and horrify everyone and it'd ALL BE OVER."

Yep. I think you should talk to someone, but you'll be okay for now.

Re: TW: self harm

[(Anonymous)]

SA

Well, yes, I understand that. I should have been more clear, but I was talking about the latter thought more than the former.

I'm sorry to hear you've been there though. I hope you're doing well now.

Re: TW: self harm

[(Anonymous)]

AYRT

Oh dear, that's worse, then. Sorry -- you understand, being there now, that tween-y "I WISH I WAS DEAD" stuff is way different than actually wanting to kill yourself, so I always try to draw that distinction for people who are scared by "I wish I was dead."

Go get help, then, or at least go to a group therapy to get some support? Once you entertain the thought it's much easier to let it grab hold and drown you. Again, speaking from experience.

Suicidal ideation is a place I've been for over ten years, so I know how dangerous it can be, and the more used to the thought you get, the more likely you are to act on it, because it normalizes the idea. Therapy can help you realize how fucked up a thought this is before it takes hold, if you get there. I would highly suggest it.

tl;dr: my experience (anecdata, but informed anecdata) says maybe you should look into getting help. Good luck, nonnie.

Re: TW: self harm

[(Anonymous)]

NAYRT

That latter thought is pretty much exactly what's gone through my head a lot recently.

(Before anyone asks, I have been getting help.)

Re: TW: self harm

[(Anonymous)]

I quite often think of suicide and there have been a couple of really really low moments recently where it would have taken just one more bad thing happening (or not even really that bad) to push me over that edge.

I can't bring myself to talk to any professionals either. I think way too much about people judging me and I can't get past that. (I know, they're not supposed to, but I just *know* they will and that puts me off.) And then there's the stigma attached to feeling that way... No, just no.