Have you ever met someone who you thought you could be really great friends with and you got along really well and then they sort of...stopped contacting you? like, they sort of dropped off the face of the earth? because I have. I've been pretty lonely for a long time; the few friends I have aren't in the same country. Then I met this person and it was so great to have someone that I could talk to and be excited to hang out with and then it didn't go anywhere. I really thought things would turn around for me and I'd be able to have a group of friends with similar interests, but alas.

I have no reason to believe they went away because of me, personally; I really just think they have their own lives and circumstances just didn't match. I'm ok with that. It's just the feeling of having something I really, really wanted being dangled in front of my face and then yanked away. Like, wtf, life? It's fucking frustrating.